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2 mths

2009-05-05T15:05:00.003+08:00

Enjoying the significance of today.

and

Many more to come.

IAQ EXAM TOMORROW!!!
Best of luck to me and those buds taking UOL exam as well\.

*hes the motivation in me*

Happy with FM

2009-05-01T16:18:00.003+08:00

My boy.

I am glad to find the unique feeling I have been finding for since sec sch.

Miracles do happen. At least this time round, i know it happened to me.
Strange enough, its still him after all.

His sincerity has moved me; though I have been having a hard time trying to digest all these happenings.

All in all. I am glad I allowed him to re-enter my life :)

Confused

2009-03-05T23:00:00.001+08:00

Things happened so ironically.

Never would I have expected this.

It all felt like a dream.

At a utter lost now.

This is driving me crazy

Sandy's Bday+Timbre_Leo

2009-02-19T23:58:00.001+08:00

Sandy's Bday
Its her 28th in 2 days time. Accompanied her down at 11am to Lao Pat Sat to get tze cha food back for celebration. On the other hand, the team got 28 chicken wings to commemorate this. The cake from awfully choc also had a chix wing drawn on it too! Quite amazed by that. Haha.
All of us managed to finish up all the food surprisingly. Hope she had a great cele.

Ending it all.
Reached Orchard station to pass him back his stuff. Yet what I got is a msg that says hes late & asked me to leave if I cant wait. Totally what the hell, & irresponsible. Just thought its basic courtesy to at least inform me earlier on this, so I wont have to go over to town.
Timbre with Leo
Had dinner over at subway before we walked over to Timbre for drinks. Silly came shortly to join us after getting lost over at the other end. Loved the place as usual & its been sometime since I came. Had a pint of Erdinger as usual, while Leo got this Tuk Tuk drink..some cocktail with baileys+strawberry....Niceee. Shall have this next time.

Halfway through, he came in his friend's car to grab his stuff, finally after I dropped him a reminder text. I spoke nothing, nor did I look at him. Neither did he. All I felt was remoteness and coldness, far worst than a stranger. I took the risk of agreeing on the relationship, & seems like consequences are falling & as foreseen, the friendship is indeed destroyed. Maturity does really play a huge role in determining the post sessions.

*It was a huge mistake to start this in the first place, yet a right choice to end this promptly, so there's much lesser pain & sorrows involved. All I ask for is your blessings, because I feel much more happier & secured now*

Valentine 2009

2009-02-14T23:48:00.000+08:00

Valentine

Testing dragged all the way till 7pm..poor pearlyn had to stay even later..till 8plus..
haizz.What a wrong day to be back at work. But luckily, all things went well & thats what matters most at the end of the day.

Headed to find Silly after work. I got him pretty freaked out with the oreo cheesecake (can totally tell hes gonna suffer from internal injury for hiding his expression so well) He got me freaked out too with the custom made SUPER THINK choc cake. Hmmmm. Its yummy indefinitely.

Ate at downtown east..This steamboat place. The soup was blend, & so were the mushrooms..Meat wasnt too bad. Went home to stone & watch SAW 1 after that. It seems like I found someone who share the same favorite past-time as me. To stone & stone & stone & stone. Ha. Niceee.

*Thank you for being there*

Breakout Dance Concert

2009-02-13T23:34:00.000+08:00

A Friday with Erena

First thing first.
I passed my BTT!
haha. I was late as usual. Luckily I recorded the timing inaccurately in my diary (1/2 hr earlier - in case I am late or smt; in the end, i really did)
The cute guy beside me literally gave me this hard stare when I was grabbing my eyes while waiting for the screen to load my results. Phew. Didnt throw face after all.
Silly promised to reward me after passing. Yeahhhhhhh.

Headed to Marina to meet Erena for our concert. Chilled out at Starbucks, den I decided to get a fringe cut since she got hers earlier. Hmm, felt much neater after. I am kinda comfy with the kimage hairstylist. Shall go to her going forward! Thanks girl for introducing. Hard to find one that you can really rely on nowadays.

Breakout Dance Concert.
Our first time at a concert in esplanade.
Only one word to describe this. PERFECT.
Both of us were so entertained by the group's performance! Good money spent..hehs. Our seats were well located as well.

Then it was supper at makansutra. With all our cravings for the past week! Ordered satays, chix wings, stingray, ice kachang. Yummmyyy. Much worth it than norm cafe food.
Chilled along the seating area by the water..before girl's daddy came to pick her up.

Gonna work tml. How nicee.

*It makes me ponder what's in your mind at times*

Long Weekend

2009-02-12T23:45:00.001+08:00

Long weekend

Took leave tml for BTT & Mon to extend the weekend. Hehs. Arghhh, but its not really a continuous weekend given tt I hav to report to work on Sat for the testing..Dread the thought...

Excited about tml's korean breakout dance concert! Cant wait......Its gonna be a pretty good one I guess. I better pass the BTT this time round..haizz..If not, I will be a huge laughing stock again..

Saw Jetstar sales fare today..Interested to go Bangkok in June for a major shopping spree. Town is super boring I swear. Argh, but its been long hanging out there to shop. Xuanie is opening a personal forever 21 spree! niceeee...I am always trying to look out for a kind hearted soul in Livejournal to hold this spree, but they either have order limit / tight deadlines....Definitely much easier to look out for the pretty clothes online..the stores at Wisma/ Vivo are so so so messy..arghh.

I am looking forward to stone with silly during weekend. Cant wait to catch Benjamin Buttons!
Missed cine cathay popcorn so badly.

Bao got lessons & couldnt meet me at night. Hmm, thought we could catch up a little. Ended work ard 9..den stoned & sweat out at the gym. Love relieving stress like this. May be costly, but i always believe its good money spent.

Things kept coming back. Again n again. Unexpectedly & caught me speechless & full of thoughts. Is there ever a way I could look at this differently. Hmmm.

*Again. again...n again...*

Cycling with Erena

2009-02-07T23:40:00.000+08:00

East Coast Cycling

Mummy woke me up at 1pm to tempt me into eating maggie noodles with loads n loads n loads of ingredients!
Meatballs, crabsticks,abalone strips,egg,veg,prawns. OMG. its really yummy.

Luckily, she woke me up, if not I am gonna be so dead about meeting erena.

Board the bus when erena called. We had already planned to cycle since weeks back. But always have to cancel/ postpone it. I taught that silly girl how to cycle 2yrs back during our poly class chalet. Ha..shes a fast learner larr. GIRL, don't be so pessimistic about yourself k...got ah peg here to boost your morale :)

We cycled for ard 2 hrs! stopped here n there indefinitely. Took some silly pics in the middle of the beach. Also witnessed this sand castle building competition. Looks fun! Gonna build one myself some day...hehs.

Got so exhausted n hungry ard 7...we wanted so much to eat bbq food..from ze cha/hawker or something..but it was so far away..shall have that after our concert next week! In the end, we decided to settle ourselves at the steamboat place near Mac. Spread was pretty awful, but thanks to the beef + squid, wasnt so bad after all.

Home sweet home at 1130! the bus was indeed fast compared to the one we took to east coast. Oh well, luckily tts the case. So tired.. shall go for my swim tml & prob find my dear silly thing.

*Loves fruitful weekends like this*

MJ at Karen Hse

2009-02-06T23:44:00.002+08:00

MJ at Karen's Hse

Its a super long week with long hrs in the office. Finally, FRI!
Everyone began to count down since morn, cuz we all can't wait to hang out at Karen's place for Mahjong. Didnt have much appetite for lunch..so hit the gym to get some stress off...

Mr big bear Chen helped me out with the DR cancellation, thankful for tt! If not, I don't think I can get outta office on time. Got dragged by Jaiyme to take cab hom e with her..wahhh.her whining & impatience is really to the max! Stoned at home to wait for Rock to end work. Decided to bring him along to boost my luck.Hehs.

That silly thing got me a pleasant surprise :) No wonder he didnt offered to bring out the helmet for me. I still took out the thing & chuck it back thinking that's his stuff. hehs. oh well..Speechless yet delighted.

Reached Karen's place at 920..saw the legendary shepard's pie! The shepard's pie was yummy! But its abit cold alrdy by the time I reached Karen's place. They started playing alrdy but was waiting for us to start the real game with money.

Got 2 MJ tables..with kennix+boy ; ezanne; fel; karen on one..then me+rock; pearlyn+dave; eileen; jaiyme on the other. Wahh, my table was pretty stressful..all like MJ experts..dave especially. Pearlyn n eileen's luck were superb. Haiz..poor jaiyme. Must be due to my curses. She indeed lost ard 80 like what I said in the office. Lost ard 25 myself, considered lucky given my bad luck..

*Loves your company, surprises & sillyness*

Super Tired

2009-01-29T23:38:00.004+08:00

I AM SO SO SO SUPER TIRED today.

ARGH.
Work is killing me.

System kinda shut down at 9:30pm & I decided to head home straight
Luckily mummy had some leftover meatballs soup.

Erena girl mentioned about her failure in making tiramisu last night.HA! Duh. Like where got that easy de. But her team is pretty cool to hang out after work to learn doing that..

Wanted to meet him to pass back his stuff, but couldnt make it after all.Anyway, he had to give an attitude response, so I guess I shall just forget about it. Hmm, people always used to say..'still be good frens after...' Well, I think it doesnt work at all for him. I tried but seems like we can nv be like the same ever again.The only thing I've regretted..I lost him as a bestie.

*Learning to trust & have faith in relationships again*

CNY 2009

2009-01-28T23:30:00.001+08:00

CNY 2009

Short & sweet summary:

(1) Fishbally steamboat for consecutive 3days
*pork;prawn;sotong;normal;mushroon;homemade --> whatever u name it, i have it!*

(2) Pathetic Angbaos

(3) Having to work on Day 1; Pizza hut delivery for lunch

(4) Entertaining relatives repeatedly

(5) Coffee sessions with my 2 loves

*still complexed...*

Chill Out At NYDC

2009-01-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

9:05
Reached office

10:00
Rolled eyes & almost fainted knowing only an hour has passed

10:30
Finally dragged my feet to pantry to refill water

11:30
Counting down to lunch though I aint tt hungry

13:00
Headed to Lao Pat Sat with colleagues. Sight of fishball stalls totally got me freaked out.
Had lian ou soup instead

14:00
Strolled back to office

16:45
Got a shock to see time passed so fast. All default issues on the limelight.

19:00
Cin bao called to hurry..

20:20
Finally left office. Headed to wheelock to meet Cin + Poon.
Had some yucky lasagne tt I left half of it to be cleared off.
Discussions on weekend programmes.

23:15
Home sweet home..

*Still still complexed..*

Shopping

2009-01-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

Long day!

Fetch daddy back with Sis early in the morning. Hes much better, at least I felt part of my prayers coming true a little :) Wow, it been exactly a month mann.

Got home around 12, then headed town with Sis for our New Year shopping. Hehs. Most satisfied about my new hair clip. Its so lovely I fell in love with it at first sight! Grabbed it on the spot. Sis wanted to get tops but ended up purchasing dresses. Haha. Shes so puzzled why this happened. I managed to get a formal office jacket & another casual red top -may this boost my luck :)

Some others we got are toiletries & her eye bag concealer. Wahhh, she look terrible mann. She sleeps more than me but got such heavy eye bags/dark rings! wahahaha. Hmm, okays...Karma is working very hard nowadays, better not laugh at her too much..hehs.

Didnt managed to join my poly mates for afterdinner drinks today. Hmm, not many turn up as well..wonder whens the next gathering. Excited about Erena's new hairdo! Haha. Wonder what that silly girl came up with this time round. Ha. Shall meet her for coffee/desserts soon :)

*Legs are aching after all the walking mann*

Awful Day

2009-01-24T23:22:00.001+08:00

Awful day

Never had such a awful week in my life before. Issues appeared at work yesterday AGAIN. We missed a event's deadline & seems like the financial impact on this is quite significant. I am still trying to figure out why I raised the query in Nov but couldnt find the notification email.
ARGHH. This is so killing me. But this has something that got to do with the IT/system, since our reports didnt capture this event for the past 2 months at all.Hopefully they could find the cause & prevent this from happening going forward.

Sis wanted to meet me after work for groceries' shopping but cancelled at the very last minute. Luckily I was cropped up at work too. Left around 8plus & headed home to stone b4 meeting rock to browse chinatown together.

Chinatown was super boring. Definitely not what I imagined it to be! hmm, I wondered what happened to the crowd & stalls. Managed to recognise one uncle from last year! hehs. One funny incident of the day though, Rock was fated to step right on this sticker that describes him so well.Silly thing! Ha! Like seriously, how in the earth could this thing appear in the middle of the road at chinatown???

We decided to head to Loyang temple for our new year prayer. Its my first time there. Followed Rock sequence of prayers & something fruitful learnt for the day.Sweet of him to bring me around, like from one end of the island to another. Enjoyed the breeze & peace on the roads. Had a soundful sleep upon reaching home :)

*Confusion & complexity is falling on me again*
*May all our prayers come true*

Steamboat at Bugis

2009-01-22T22:56:00.001+08:00

Steamboat

Got the sudden craving for steamboat! Dragged leo & rocky out for dinner yesterday at bugis chong qing.
Surprisingly we didnt have a hard time waiting for a table.Guess many didnt wana have this since nxt week they could have this for all they want.

Rushed my work & speed off to meet them around 9..then after desserts at ah chew stall.
The coffee custard still managed to melt my heart till now :) Gonna look up for the recipe & get people to be my guinea pig.hehs.

Decided not to join Ade, Julie & gang at the chalet. It was alrdy so late & thinking of the difficulties heading home after that dreads me from going. But quite upset I missed this chance to catch up with them..Supposedly gonna join them at Cova to work part-time on weekends. But contract is involved & my current company dont allow me to hold a second job. Argh, hope Frances can handle well herself since Ade is going back to studies already.

*My heart has been telling me something indifferent lately*

Bad day at work

2009-01-19T23:57:00.002+08:00

BAD DAY AT WORK.

I truly understood & experience a series of unfortunate events today. Urgh. Totally monday blues....& indeed I wore blue today -__-

08:20
Forgot to set the alarm last night & I jumped when Mummy called my hp to confirm if I got up.
Hurried off after a quick shower & cabbed to redhill station (ya..although its a 1min ride. But spending $4 is better than $13 with all the ERPs +Peak surcharge travelling to One Raffles Quay)

09:05
Reached work! Went to pour my cereal & settled down to clear the emails. A half day absence on Fri noon almost burst my inbox..urgh.

09:35
The morning started off hectic & hasty with all settlment issues & liability to send instructions.
Extended deadlines doesnt seem to help much though.

12:35
Decided tt I needed some air & a walk, so went down to old market with boss to pack for everyone. The fishball uncle loves the sight of us! But not the hungry peeps queuing right behind us.Hehs. So today, its a solid 8packs of fishball beehoon soup. Hmm, I think 1/2 of us have this almost EVERYDAY. (for the past 1 yr I know them? hahaha) Gonna steal his recipe 1 day & set up a stall when I almost reached retirement :)

13:10
Had a slower paced lunch, but I guess all were so hungry tt we almost swallowed our fishball beehoon in MINUTES.

13:55
Back to hectic work again. This time round even more happenings. Email requests popped in non-stop from everyone asking about every issues. Incoming requests all happened to fall under my category of securities. That evil polar bear colleague of mine kept laughing at my unluckiness. Anyway, I am glad he helped out a little.

20:30
Dropped a few mails to New York peeps before getting my butt outta my seat.

21:15
Decided to save money for the company by not claiming my transport allowance. Dragged my feet up the bus & luckily I managed to keep my eyes wide before I missed my stop AGAIN.

00:05
Ate dinner! Had a slice of bread + milk to ease my slp

00:15
Updating thissss
Off to bed! Will try to reach at 8am tml to ensure everything is in order

*okays, its time to offer the bad luck demons some chocs later*

New Year Resolution

2009-01-18T21:38:00.004+08:00

Suddenly thought that I should keep this blog alive.

Oh well..Time for new year resolution again...

(1) Staying with my job
(2) Daddy's health
(3) Studies
(4) Overseas trip
(5) New laptop
(6) Happy 21st

Had a great brunch today at Fullerton Hotel. We all assume this is the only bonus tt we are getting from the company. Hmmm..its definitely pleasant of cuz.

The spread was a so-so, but the seafood was a killer. N with all the free flow champagne! All got so crazy by 3pm. Jaimye Ah Pui was a gone case..had to end up puking in the ladies..& she still had the intention to drive home & send me! Eventually this all didnt happen fortunately.
Had about 4glasses of champagne w a frozen margherita..Surprising I could take this amt of alcohol w/o going bonkers. Hehs. On the other hand, my eileen twin kept wanting to fall asleep while eating..

Did a crazy thing after tt. Went fusion to swim! Realised I need to keep myself awake. & it truly worked. Today I wanted to arrange a cycling session with Erena, but forgot about this company lunch. And she tried all sorts of means to persuade me about cancelling it. I think she did the right thing. Definitely gonna keep falling during the cycle, given the amt of alcohol consumption. Hehs. Next next wk k girl :)

Celebrated Xuemei's 21st at Jurong Chevron Chalet yesterday. Met many kids! --> Xm manager's kids+nephews+nieces..woah..her family is huge mann.N Cindy almost killed them.Poon on the other hand kept emphasizing on bearing kids & having chalets like this in the NEAR future. Gosh.Glad to catch up a little with Junhong with his girl..disappointed tt we couldnt get to meet up with Guorong..he gotta be activated in camp & couldnt be there. N silly dione thought the party is nxt sat! so happened tt she had training yesterday.The rest didnt change much though..hmmm.

Went for the SIM talk on fri..still deciding btw SIM or SAA. Gonna go for the SAA talk this wed, & compare the prices blah blah. Have to make a decision fast! Choice is certain: UOL Accounting & Finance.

Look forward to this fri---> Suppposedly TFO2 gathering. Hopefully everyone is able to make it.
Miss them all.

*I have alrdy learnt to be forgiving. Gonna let all the past unhappiness/anger/disapointment go with 2008. Yepp :)*

Much more happenings

2008-11-16T22:32:00.002+08:00

Much much more happenings.

- A disappointing holiday trip last mth.

- The trust I gave which a friend betrayed
(if wadever u had done makes u enjoyable, I guess all these yrs of friendship seems like a false front) --> & ya..abt u speaking of once close friends not sharing their thoughts with u? I think they must have their reasons for doing that. Just that I didnt discover fast enough.
I dont need a mentor in my relationship, cuz you have no right to.
Sharing my troubles with u means I regard u as a buddy. But it doesnt mean u can misuse my trust. Cuz tts totally disappointing I swear.
And I am sorry to tell u that wadever u hav said doesnt really affect us, as I alrdy mentioned to him before.So ya, APPRECIATE UR EFFORT.

- Self Reflection
Life
Relationship
Work

- The growth of fondness I have for naggy.
The change I see in u lately after sharing my thoughts abt u.
Thank you for being such a loving, understanding & forgiving bf.
I dunno what more could I expect from u.

- Weakening economy
The horrible ongoing retrenchment.
The tension in office.

- Work politics
This is everyday, everywhere & anytime

Things tt I yearn for at the moment:
- Phuket Holiday with Naggy In Dec
- Wawa return from Hong Kong
- Getting my driving license

St James W Naggy

2008-10-11T16:25:00.000+08:00

St James w Naggy

Didnt get to swim yesterday night.Haizz.Work got dragged till 8plus.
By the time we get to Fusionpolis, the gym would have closed already.

Zouk plan w Poon was cancelled due to e long queue.
So we headed to St James boiler room for the live band.
I am so in love with the female dancer!
Omg. Her moves n everything is so captivating.

Wanna go back & see her again =)

BACK ONLINE

2008-10-02T23:06:00.004+08:00

BACK ONLINE.

Finally.
This makes it much easier for me to contact wawa =)

There have been much happenings over the past 2 mths.

(1) Wa's departure
Hmm, still trying to get over her absence though
Her letter finally reached me after 2mths!
I had a difficult time trying to keep my laughter down while reading tt.
Daily hr set aside in the morn to email her from work =)

(2) Hectic clubbing/chill out sessions with Poon +Deenie
DXO
MAKANSUTRA.
ROCHOR DAU HWAY
P CHOPS.
SPICE.

(3) IAQ lessons on 2 sats.
Freq hangouts with colleagues.

(4) Elena 21st bday at Changi chalet
Grand & she definitely looks gorgeous.
Her cute doggie too!

(5) Freq meetups/clubbing with Leo
Hair salon
Salads
Zouk

(6) Downs with Naggy
Got it solved-Will stay strong =)

*Trying to stay focused*

High School Musical

2008-08-08T02:00:00.000+08:00

High School Musical.

Today took 4pm for the expo musical..rushed my whole morn I swear. The team ordered TCC for lunch due to big bear bday thingy..had the usual Kahlua salmon --> which is OMG freakingly yummy. I was pretty uneasy working today cuz big bear was acting ABNORMALLY. Firstly, he bought Godiva chocs (cost ard $120 for 24 small bites?)..& emailed everyone abt it--> I had to roll a paper n hit his table rapidly to reveal his true self t in case he's possessed or smt. Everyone couldnt stop laughing & I just couldnt stop myself from doing that as well!

Gobbled 2 chocs before I left. I thank him in a polite way for the first time. Hahas. Then rushed off to the MRT to meet erena. Went changi to stone & explore ard..as well as grab some Yakun toast & fruits for high tea..

I thought the musical was really good. Probably I was alrdy too hooked with their soundtracks in Part 1 movie. Surprised to see the crowd though. & even more surprised to see Weilong as the usher for my seat area. The world is really small..The musical lasted for 2 hrs..& we headed back to Changi to stone again..

Its nice hanging out at the flight viewing hall. Just wished those planes could take my complicated thoughts away. Oh well, we decided to go there more often..indeed stoning time passed so fast that we forgot abt the time. By the time we caught the train, it only provides service to Tanah Merah. Lady luck was shining on us then I guess, cuz we managed to catch the last bus 14..Reached my place ard 1am..but didnt feel like crossing the road to home. So I stoned there till 2am unknowingly before making my way back.

*Train of thoughts.*

I am still a girl after all.

2008-08-07T17:25:00.002+08:00

Sometimes,

Things just don't turn out the way it should be.

As independent, strong, understanding I can be,

I guess,

I am still a girl after all.

*Just wana slp these off*

Nike run trial

2008-08-06T23:30:00.001+08:00

Nike run training (Part 2)

Didnt manage to attend the one on Mon due to the free Mummy movie preview I had. Went with Wa & Cin. The seats being the 2 row from the screen was torturing, n the popcorn that were out of air was unappealing. hmmmm.

Our training schedule was fixed at every mon & wed. So far so good...

Everyone rushed their work & was changed by 730pm..7 of us headed from ORQ all the way to marina/singapore flyer area..took abt 1/2 hr..n i guess we all finished at least 2.5 km. Performance was much better than Mon as what they commented =) Then went Fitness First with eileen to get our shower & steam bath..

It definitely helps me get into my bed early. Lights off at 1030...........

SIS IN TAIWAN

2008-08-05T17:57:00.001+08:00

SIS IN TAIWAN.

My slping partner is gone.
No one that to snatch the toilet/mirror with me.
SO BORED.

Anyway,
Gonna see the fats she gain when shes back!
n my presents of cuz..

Hmm,
Saving up now to go there with erena for our next trip =) shall be patient with it..

*need a holiday badly*

Laptop is down

2008-08-01T17:54:00.001+08:00

MY TITANIUM TOSHIBA LAPTOP IS DOWN ONCE AGAIN.

N ITS HOPELESS.AS PER WHAT THE NP IT PPL SAID (ya, i was a cheat by disguising myself as a current student. Duh. Wads new.)

I WISHED SOMEONE CAN BE A GUARDIAN ANGEL TO HELP ME RECOVER THOSE MEMORABLE PICS IN MY HARD-DRIVE!

Random Thoughts

2008-07-06T00:17:00.000+08:00

Sometimes.
when things get too perfect.
i fear.

Sometimes.
when i feel happy n loved.
i fear.

Sometimes.
when everything is in peace n order.
i fear.

Sometimes.
when I feel emotionless.
i fear.

Sometimes.
when I think back abt memories.
i fear.

Sometimes.
when I anticipate the future.
i fear.

Sometimes.
or most of the times.
I wished the fear wasnt there.

*I've got you to eliminate those in me*

Chill Out With Wa

2008-07-04T23:12:00.000+08:00

ITS POLITICS' DAY WITH WAWA!

Soup spoon.

Starbucks.

n complains abt life in singapore.

OH WELLS. 2 more wks to go for your results =)

*Pursue your dreams at whatever costs it takes*

Credit Suisse Induction Training_Changi

2008-07-02T23:34:00.004+08:00

Credit Suisse Induction Training-Changi Business Park.

RUSH RUSH N MORE RUSHING in the morning for the past several days.

Urgh.

Seriously, running in heels along the packed raffles place underground is the last thing that anyone would like to do!

The shuttle buses are horrible. They either arrived early, or leave once the time strikes the timing SHARPLY. Oh wells.

Sceneries.

The course has been fruitful so far.
Though the products were pretty much covered in NP modules, but they are better explained here with the real life egs n illustrations. Cool.

Trainer was superb too. Of cuz tt comes along with the goodies (M&Ms, Twisters, Wang wangs, Choc Waffers, Cheezels etc) that he pampered us throughout the day with =)

Thoughts..
Glad I forgo the UOL course this yr. CS is subsidising the new grads with this Investment Analysis Qualification from SII (Securities Investment Institute).
SII --> main regulator for UK investment. MAS n most financial institutes are following their structure & supports/recognises its presence/certs. Training provided by Kaplan. So I guess its worth taking the risk for by enrolling for it.

Gonna take this 1 yr course & be bonded w CS for a yr, though the risk is to repay them w the course fees (should we fail the exams). Hmm. Not gonna be so pessimistic for a start.

Just in time for UOL nxt yr.
That SHALL BE the plan at the moment.

*Knowledge IS nv sufficient*

20th Cele (27June08): The SHIP restaurant_Erena

2008-06-27T23:18:00.001+08:00

The SHIP restaurant

That SILLY girl. Booked some restaurant but end up having a hard time looking for it. Hahas. Wads new. Anyway. Restaurant found at last!

Located at a super ulu corner in shaw centre L4. Seriously MAJOR discovery mann.

Love dining places w themes! This apparently evolved ard ships =)
Cool menu.

We decided to try what they are known for. The steaks.
Erena --> Cheese baked Steak
Me--> Red Wine Mushroom Steak.

Waiting..

Not forgetting happy food of cuz..
Served on hotplate w a mini flame show.

After dinner.

*Thanks for the remarkable dinner girl. Loves =)*

20th Cele (23-25June08): Sentosa Costa Sands Chalet_Naggy

2008-06-25T22:25:00.001+08:00

20th Bday - Sentosa Chalet

23rd June.

Had sushi tei for lunch before checking in.

Took the tram-LRT in from Vivo to the beach station.

Travelling under the hot sun with the heavy bags is so so so a bad idea I swear.
Upon arrival......
We were fine with everything EXCEPT that indian receptionist who's trying to be difficult on us. Well, we TOLERATED.

Dinner at Vivo HK Kim Gary.
Loves the flavourful mushroom rice. His bowl of noodles looked SCARY.

Sweets.

24th June.

Lazed till late noon b4 going for lunch!

Loves nuaing.

This for dinner @ Marina.

Happy food for the day =)

Singapore flyer for Digestion.

While wobbling (HIM) at the highest...hahas.

After the wobbling. Back to still ground for him at last.

The cool discovery for my bday!

*The Greatest Gift I've Had*

20th Cele (22June08): Fish & Co+Acid Bar_Leo+Ange+Rocky

2008-06-22T23:00:00.001+08:00

20th Cele (22June08):Leo+Ange+Rocky

Fish & Co

Had a late lunch w Leo @ Subway. Hahas. Ya. Like wads new.

Shopped a little ard far east area. We were still quite stoned after several hrs. Hahas.

Then we headed to Fish & Co at park mall for dinner=)

Our food! Seafood platter for 1 + Salmon

Mushroom salad in balsamic dressing.Nicest & Yummiest as u can see.

The late comers.

Lovely surprise =)

Acid Bar

Had my usual Malibu Pineapple Drink =)
The group was great today. Like the singer's vocal.

Exploring Mr Rocky's HP.

Crazy shots.

As per Leo+ Rocky:Had to pose a pic of tt as a bday girl 'ought to do thingy'

With the group.

Hmm. N she sang.

Pre 20th Cele (21thJune) Wa+Cin+Xuan+Dione+Deenie

2008-06-21T23:45:00.005+08:00

Pre 20th Cele (21thJune) Wa+Cin+Xuan+Dione+Deenie

Met wa n cin ard 4pm to slack ard b4 heading for our dinner.

Decided on the below @ Paragon=)

Dione came ard 6! n we decided to have our dinner first w/o xuan--> figured tt she may not be eating much as usual.

While waiting for a table..

The Food!

Indulging.

Done.

We Movied --> The HULK

Usual popcorn-ing session.

After movie.

Gifts from them.

From Wawa. Seriously made me dumbfounded =)

*Priceless Friendships*

Soup Spoon+Starbucks_19June08

2008-06-20T23:53:00.001+08:00

Another chilled & stoned day

Soup Spoon! Leo finished this up. Good for her =)

The reason for her hidden smile---> texting her dar.

BUSY.

Saw Yehein, Ed, Gerard, Songhui @ paragon COVA --> Julies new res. Its super TAI TAI.

The desserts are killing me with their looks & errrmmm..Price of cuz. Hahas. N Yehein told me he saw a BARCLAYS credit card! OMG. I can like imagine the amount of assets that she have mannn.

Walked n shopped for digestion.

Got my wallet at last! This was love at first sight. After all the hunting these few mths..FINALLY.

Den STARBUCKS FOR DINNER. My usual fav green tea frapp of cuz.

We seriously ate for the entire day mann. Ate some light dim sum --> cheong fun & custard bun at HK cafe. Movie starts only at 150am..oh well. Time passed fast after all.

Decided not to head to Indochine. Slacking in the theatre seems like a much better choice. Hahas.

Anyway, her friends were dramatic for the day & we were absolutely confused abt the whole episode. Like whats so fun abt breaking up & getting together repeatedly..hmm..for dumb reasons somemore. Urgh.

Homed at 430am. Den went neverland to find naggy.

Niceee slp at last.

Swimming w Naggy

2008-06-19T23:58:00.000+08:00

My LEAVE STARTS TODAY!

Met wawa n naggy for lunch at JP.
Had to pass wa her hard disk to prepare a presentation for her HK interview.

Ate Jap eggy pork rice at the food court. Nice=)

Then wa headed to sch to retrieve her prototype.

Me n naggy went queenstown for our swim! Like finally. Successful swim.
OMG. Hes super slackish. Urgh. N nua mann. Haha. Seriously, OLD n WITHERED piece of naggy shit.

Had parklane wantan mee for dinner near PS. We still prefer the one located at Bugis though.

Starbucks for chilling since we couldnt get a timing for the movie. The Starbucks at Cathay has an outside seating. Kinda like the arrangement & seats. Shall grab wa they all here the nxt time instead of the hsbc outlet at orchard =)

*Absolute Nua-ed day today*

My 20th Bday Cele - Credit Suisse

2008-06-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

20th Bday Pre-celebration @ Credit Suisse

Had lunch out yesterday at this korean restaurant near far east square.
Loved the food, pricing & the service! Their treat of cuz=)

Was puzzled why they decided to have lunch. Realized that all of them thought my leave starts from wed onwards. Hahas. EVEN AGNES MY MANAGER. omg. anyway mystery solved.

Today! All came over to wish me happy bday type. I was like 'how come I didnt noe I was born on the 18th hurr'.

They thought I was joking as usual cannn. But NO! Hahas. Miscommunication. Earlier, I told em my date was even nos..24688, n they rmbered it as multiples of 2s---> 18688. Hahas. Oh well. This made me laugh for the whole morn.

6pm when I was like rushing like mad.
.
Turned ard n noticed most of my team-mates are not at their desks. Thought they knocked off alrdy! Only left the corp action team near me
.
Then Agnes came to say there's a meeting. I was like super sian. N even wanted to bring my notepad & pen along.
.
Saw everyone at the pantry! With the sinful blackforest cake =) haha. My OMG look was there mann. Lamed & suan each other ard as usual. Crazy bunch of ppl.

*Joining everyone at the 20s age grp =) Now I dun feel so extra & always called ERXIN because I am 19th. hehs*

East Coast - SUCCESS - Happy 1 mth!

2008-06-14T23:55:00.002+08:00

Cheers to 1 mth. =)
14 June 08. East COAST.
Cycling. Sea stoning.

Setting off!

Loves twin bike. Happy slacking at the back. Hehs.

Entering bedok jetty.

Cam whoring.

Trying to commit suicide *__*

Candyflosses!

Sunset.

Retard-ing

Sweets.

*Nothing beats better than stoning together=)*

Gd news - WA enlisted for HK interview

2008-06-13T23:55:00.000+08:00

HK POLYUNI INTERVIEW.

Its a water filling dinner w wawa today. Soup spoon --> Mudpie --> Tea/coffee floats @ Coffee club.
Satisfying for sure.

HEARTIEST CONGRATULATIONS TO HUA JIE FOR HER ENLISTMENT!
Be off safely with my wishes on the 23rd!
I noe u can do it=)

*11 yrs of friendship n still counting...*

Subway-Leo

2008-06-12T23:43:00.000+08:00

Ah pau colleague is finally back from her 3wks holi.
End of covering work for her!
She bought us lotsa chocs mannn. Loves. But hates as well. Hmmm.

Looking forward to 19th for my 3 wks break frm wrk as well.
Doesnt matter even if I have to travel to Changi. At least training time is regular. Get to go off at 6pm off on the dot for sure.

Met leo after work for dinner. Since Fri is day for wawa.

Had my fav SUBWAY!

Naggy waiter was nicee to send me home after that=)

*Absence makes the heart grow fonder*

Tiring Day at Work

2008-06-11T23:30:00.001+08:00

Horrible day @ work.

Heading home right away.
Being alone.
Self stoning.
Falling asleep FAST.

Absolutely the right medicine.

Yesterday's a History.
Tml's a Mystery.
Today's a gift.
That's why its called the present.

Naggy Ass

2008-06-09T02:19:00.004+08:00

Naggy is a BIG HUGE RETARDED ARSE.

=)

Hehes. Caught ya. Stop spying. SHOOoooo.

*NEW responsibility : Personal stressball*

Gene Bday Cele

2008-06-08T11:59:00.003+08:00

Some thoughts to think/puzzle abt.

Oh wells.

*Happy 20th Gene!*
*TISSUE PACK FOUND! =)*

East Coast - Unsuccessful

2008-06-07T23:56:00.003+08:00

Proposed East Coast Trip

The weather was super duper good today. Ermm. For SLPING. Urgh. There goes our cycling plan @ East Coast. Haiz. So wanted a day out in the sun w the wind & all.

Woke up pretty late & went to shower only after Naggy told me hes reached my place. Haha. 45 mins! Patience skill is building on & on mann=)

Saw this 'chiang tan da xing dong' variety show by kym n yifeng. This episode is on claypot rice. Was drooling on it big time I swear. So yepp. You should have guessed what I suggested for dinner. Hehs.

Walked ard queensway, then ikea --> We were observing this angry kid @ the kiddy playground. Not tt I am a saddist but shes really abnormal & violent! Banging the glass door & looking as though shes gonna hack us once shes out mannn/ then this fat little boy who keeps knocking himself onto the beetle stufftoy thingy, if not, the wall to fall backwards on the ground. Not once. But MANY MANY MANY MANY times.

Conclusion: Whats wrong with kids nowadays!

Had our desired claypot rice at ABC market! The store is famous for that. Ate that since young. Though it took half hr or so, & we were famished. The wait was worth it. N of cuz, icy desserts to end the dinner =)

*A joy to stone with ya*

Sand & Stone Philosophy

2008-06-04T23:45:00.001+08:00

"LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND
where winds of forgiveness can erase them away

AND

TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE"
where no wind can ever erase it

HP IN WATER

2008-06-03T23:56:00.001+08:00

HP IN WATER

Mistook the cup of tea as the hp slotter today. Urgh. My hp was soaked in the cup of tea for at least 1/2 hr I suppose. OMG. Seriously dumb ass.

Spent entire morn shaking the water out & blow drying my hp. I thought it's a gone case kinda thing & was disheartened abt getting a new hp. It did gave a few problems consecutively at the start, but after 2 hrs, it was back in proper condition. A big relief for me!

Cindy worm took revenge & ps me today. Mentioned tt she have some course to attend to. Oh wells. Naggy met me for dinner instead. Had my fav Ban Mian at Vivo. Satisfying=)

Got home & found out water supply got prob. Argh. The flow of water is like tiny raindrops mann. Waited for some time for the water to be collected in the pail before I could have my shower. Sis decided to stay overnight at her friend's place instead (shes smart for once when it comes to such crisis). Haha. Nothing new of cuz.

*Have the FAITH.as always*
*I did.I do. I will.*

Sweet Candyfloss

2008-05-31T15:30:00.002+08:00

SILLY.

Naggy went absolutely CRAZY today. He brought a fresh candy floss(in stick form) all the way from city hall new york new york cafe to shaw house by cab. By the time I saw him, the candyfloss is like melting & he's got them all over his hands/legs/pants.

Seriously. I m DUMBFOUNDED.
And ya, he kept telling me how the cab uncle admire him for doing that. Hahas.
Leo looks shocked & had that OMG expression. Erm, I can truely understand tt.

Thanks for satisfying my craving with such an silly act.

*Loves CANDYFLOSSES; n ur SILLYNESS =) *

Michele & Julie's Big Day - 30May08

2008-05-30T15:30:00.000+08:00

Michele & Julie's Big Day-30May08

Finally, after all the bickerings/laming, they are getting married! Julie was spectacularly pretty, erm, & controlling her vulgarities hard. Hehs.

Met Ade & Mag in town & took cab there : Republic of Singapore Yacht Club

Cool place to hold the wedding at; the wedding wasnt the traditional style where they have the various courses. Instead, it was a buffet style & definitely a fun/entertaining one. We were allocated the same table with aung n gang. Was shocked to find out that Aung, Yehein, Eddie, Gerard, Songhui were the groom's brothers for the wedding. So apparently, they did lotsa silly things in the morn in order to fetch the bride: drinking vinegar+cornflakes / eating banana chocs/ wearing bras/panties over them & drinking 'milk' from each other/ having part of their legs waxed/ many more. The video was played in the ceremony & everyone seriously had a hard laugh outta it.

The tiramisu cup cakes represented their wedding cake, & all personally baked by chef Michele! Thats seriously so sweettt, & like what naggy said 'a chef wedding indefinitely'.

Loves their token. The sweets in the boxes had their names printed on them!

Headed off to St James Boiler room for the second session. Julie bought 9 bottles there. OMG. Seriously, almost everyone were gone. Me and Ade hurried home when we were still in our conscious state of mind. Got home, head was spinning like crazy but I was glad that i am alrdy safely in bed.

Jon bombed my phone throughout the night. The next day, I got to realise that he woke up ard 6am by the security cuz he's literally lying by the driveway along great world city. He's seriously freaked out! No wonder he called everyone to find out what happened to him. Hahas. Our conclusion is: He quarrelled with the cab uncle given his hot tempered-ness. N the uncle threw him out. HAHA.

Anyway, my heartiest congrat to the newly weds. Stay sweet & loving always; babies next! =)

*Love isnt love till you gave it away*

Graduation

2008-05-28T23:59:00.003+08:00

GRADUATION!

Met girl early in sch to have our fav sandwich & bubble tea, for the very last time.

Headed to LT68C for the briefing, n cam whoring starts =)

Finally, another 1/2 hr, we proceeded to the convention centre.

Our dear NONO did smt crazy on stage upon receiving his dip from the director. I guess he's the only one in history who gave a twist in front of the cam with tt funny looking face of his. The whole crowd laughed, & I was seriously behind OMG-ing. Haha.

The ceremony ended at ard 6pm, & it was reception/photo taking sessions.

Headed off with erena girl to return our robe, den I went back home to change to meet naggy.

STARS + CANDYFLOSSES

Made naggy wait for abt 2 hrs. Hahas. Sorry that you have to remind me abt being old, withering..Hehes. I kinda knew tt all along. Hmmm.

Had our dinner @ soup spoon. Appetite was really bad. We were supposed to meet chang/dione & guys at zouk. Supposedly their last clubbing session b4 enlistment. Reached there, & everyone seemed dismissed n outta sight. Furthermore, I was feeling bloated & lotsa discomfort. Hmmm. In the end had to ps em.

The night was calming & relaxing with his accompany. Nothing beats better than stars watching with candy flosses calling me from the sky. The thought of walking out frm siloso is terrible esp in the wee hrs (we were harbouring the scary thoughts of the merlion. It seriously looks unfriendly/spooky without the lightings!). Luckily, this mysterious cab appeared outta no where, which spared us from the walking. Erm, sounds spooky, but we didnt care much then. Hahas.

*Hate to say goodbyes*

IKEA MEATBALL

2008-05-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

I FINALLY HAD MY LOVELY IKEA MEATBALLS TODAY!

Yummy shit as usual. Hurrrr.

Its family day! Everyone gets to knock off early at 5pm. We all left by 530. Greatest achievement for the whole week =) Headed to Newton to locate Decoders cafe. Found it without much effort. Hehs. Timing was just niceee, as he's almost done by the time I got there. Finally seen the cafe, ermm as well as the auntie tt he spends most of the time in the cafe with. Like cute typee...

Okay. Back to my meatballs. They are simply delicious! Hehs. Happy happy food. Chix wings as well! Luckily I warned Naggy to get 4 instead of 6! We only managed to finish off 3 of them. Too full to stuff them in le. Then I had a hard laugh looking at his childhood pics. Sibei CHINA BOY. Hahas. Cuteeee! But absolutely a disaster when I compare the pics to his present state now. Oh well =p Naggy got another happy food for me as my dessert - alchohol choco. Sinful and high mann =)

*Love ur loved ones the way they are*

Swimming?

2008-05-21T23:45:00.001+08:00

Un-successful swim

We were supposed to go swimming today! But queenstown pool is like booked. Totally EX cannn. And we couldnt go to delta cuz that retarded boy of mine brought shorts to swim? Like queenstown is the only pool thats lenient abt this cann. Haiyo.

Went to have dinner at anchor point HK cafe instead. Not bad! Rather visit this outlet than the one at cine. Gonna bring mummy here one day. Hmmm, I felt so tired after all the crapping & laughing mann. Hmm. Esp the server who took the orders. Oh my. Serious joke of the day. I just cant control my laughter even though I know it awfully wrong to do that. But oh well, not like he could control as well! Hahas. But he definitely did a better job than me =)

Hmm, met this cute little baby that just turned 1 yr old. Shim (still cant fig if thats a girl/boy. hehs.) is soooo lovely! OMG. Suddenly feel like kidnapping only. Haha. And I think shim likes us, due to all the smileys shim gave when seeing us. We even got a cake from the kind mum! But didnt eat it cuz I alrdy ate 1 full brownie cheese cake tt naggy brought frm decoders. Ate it with TLC cannn. Hahas. Like ErXin type only.

*I wan IKEA meatballs!*

SWEET.

2008-05-18T23:55:00.003+08:00

Today's nett sales at Clothesplay was $53. Haiz. Just abt enough to cover my pay cannn.The whole place was seriously like ghost-town. Argh.

Time passed fast today! Have got my lamer to crap with me throughout. Cheers~hehs.

I was freaking bored.

Retarding Moments.

*PINCH MYSELF HARD*

SMU.MOVIE.GATHERING

2008-05-17T23:30:00.003+08:00

SMU.MOVIE.GATHERING

Attended SMU accountancy talk with naggy. CONVINCING talk for once. Though he kept insisting that the student speaker is like a typical salesman >__<>

Had BIG prawn noodles for lunch..@ abt 4pm? We were hungry like hell. Luckily my tummy was gd enough & it didnt make any noise in the theatre mannn. N believe me when I say BIG, its really BIGGG. Nv seen any stall providing huge prawns lidat. Hahas. Yummy n cheap as well! Headed off for Harold n Kumar movie. Haha. One conclusion only. Absolutely catered for LAME ppl like us. But it was a good laugh indeed.

Then we headed off to meet Dione at taka. Deenie decided to go for fishing, n Cin was held in a conference..n xuan came like ard 9plus..cant imagine Dione starving to death alone there mann. Had mos burger & catched up on life a little. Shall wait for Wa to come back for another meet up again I guess.

2008-05-16T23:59:00.001+08:00

Some STUPID Info Talk

It was a hectic day for me again. The unlucky devil of neverland aimed at me throughout the day, filling me with all sorts of work to do. Conversions, traders saying YES to rights issue at the very last min, new encounter with fresh notices/declaration to fill in. Seriously, omg.

It was alrdy 5pm when I realised all the trades have not been booked yet. Trade support team seem to be unresponsive to my calls n emails. Yea. N my trades were finally uploaded at 6pm. But that wasnt so easy for me after all, received an irritating call from Bank of New York that the conversion form has missing inx & account details, for which I have to check with the agent again. Oh well, just when I thought I could scram off for the day.

Next, it was 630pm. Had no choice but to ask to clear up for me. Surprisingly, she was okay & I flee out of office to meet uncle feng for the UOL talk. *I just hope she dun throw all the shity stuff back to me on Mon to handle mann*

Okay. I could simply summarize the whole experience of listening to the talk with 3 adjectives:
(1) Boring
(2) Unconvincing
(3) What the shit?

Hahas. Ya. Not Joking. Though I am still pretty interested in the course after all. Oh well, n the crowd was amazing too. Cant deny the fact that me n feng are the only normal looking ones there. Hahas. Alright, a PENNY FOR MY THOUGHT on this. One more week to think it through again. Haiz.

The day didnt end too bad after all, with the super nicee Jap dinner he brought me to. Yummy, authentic & satisfying I would say =)

My lady's set --> Love everything abt it.

His Pork Egg Don --> Niceeee =) Though we expected it to be noodle. Haha.

*Loves my stress-reliever*

2008-05-15T02:01:00.004+08:00

AORTA BALANCING

The KRW accounts are the killers this month again (I almost felt like tearing the com apart last mth)

Haiz. Couple of us stayed for OT last night to finish them off.Not really successful though cuz the brain seems to be malfunctioning after 7pm. We decided to figure the difficult ones out the next day when we noticed the time.

The real meaning of office hrs:
At least 9 hrs --> Quoted literally to satisfy MOM requirements
12 hrs --> Company's minimum expectation
>12 hrs --> This is exactly the real meaning.

Hmm, life seem to be getting interesting, weird, complicating lately.
Its hard to comprehend the happenings but yet fun to decipher them.

Met cin for movie & dinner. I cant believe I was so calm to wait for her (2 hrs!)
I choose to believe its a gd training session for Patience n all. hahas.
Watched IRONMAN --> will give 3.5/5? Probably if the ending is swee-er, I will give a 4.5!

OH WELL.

I THINK SO.

I GUESS SO.

MAYBE?

OH WELLSssssss.

*Risks are meant to be taken after all*

2008-05-13T23:55:00.003+08:00

Pre-goodbye holiday trip with wawa

Managed to catch up with her before she leaves for her 2 wks trip back to HK (i.e. 2 days time!) Its so cool having to stay in her newly bought house there. Hmm, when I heard she had the walls of her room painted green, I almost fell off my chair. Oh well, haha. What to do.

Went to try the new Jap outlet at cine. We were quite satisfied on the overall. Interesting pastas that you could hardly find them ard.

And there she is, sending MMS to someone i guess..haha.hmmm.

The ice-cream was supposed to be the greentea macha flavour =(

Headed over to our usual hangout star$$$ to chill. And the time passed freakingly fast I swear. Eeeew. 12 yrs of talking/cursing/gossiping & still not enough. Oh well.

I think shes really serious abt moving back to HK mann. And speaking of penpal-ing. Eeer. Sounds antique, but I shall do it for her I guess? Hehs. Just hope she could get into the sch she wants & the life she yearn for over there. Basically, I had to because she didnt even consider a backup plan at all! I seriously dunno what to do with her. Urgh.

*Best friends are siblings that you have yet to chance upon*

NIGHT @ THUMPERS (11May08)

2008-05-12T13:26:00.002+08:00

Sun Night @ Thumpers

A super crazy night that I spent with Leo.
Hmm, just to accompany her to see that someone spinning..& to relieve myself of cuz.

Wines.wines.and more wines.

But got to know some crazy friendly ppl, that I kinda don't really recall how they look like? Hmm. Thats bad.

Well. At least I was spared from doing extraordinary stuff like wad Deenie & I did in the midst of the alcohol high-ness. Certainly a big Phew.

*Who aint afraid of taking risks*

Mother's Day 2008

2008-05-12T03:27:00.000+08:00

Mother's Day

Okays, it was supposed to be a Mummy's Day out. Sis actually placed reservations in her hotel, but mum kept insisting she dun wana go due to the following reasons:
(1) it was late (although we informed her in the afternoon?)
(2) too far (she sounds like we r going to Changi >_<)
(3) waste of money (noe she meant nice but my sis & I rolled our eyes for the whole evening)

By 7pm, sis was slping like a log, & mum was half aslp (urgh. she rather go out to meet her kakis in the market. ) Den sis suddenly got up & outta house. Soon, I realised I was going to self-retard alone at home all of a sudden.

Went Chinatown to have porridge with cousin instead. Hahas. It was great having cousin to retard together (with him being more retarded & lame) We spent most of the time observing the crowd in Chinatown & true enough we are the youngest ppl ard; the folks are either single or stoning ard. So I reckon that they wana stay outta house from their other halves. Hahas. Speaking of forever love. So not right.

*Its better to slp the troubles off rather than to think abt them*

Life in Credit-Suisse

2008-05-11T18:25:00.011+08:00

LIFE IN CREDIT-SUISSE

Unknowingly, its been 9 mths working in Credit Suisse.

The people are great, & I am getting the hang of handling the various duties.

Basically, the jobscope is all abt corporate finance & the quantity of various kind of events shocked me big time as I nv ever came across them in my course of studies. Relatively, I got to comprehend how traders think (well, having to withstand their temper too) so I guess its still a fruitful experience after all.

Just shifted from the fixed income team (cash div/coupons) to voluntary corp actions (i.e deadlines & all for events like put options/converisons)
Oh man. Its a whole lot of big diff. The volume is lesser, but the stress was terrible.
Like seriously, a much more long way to go.

Had the annual yr end Credit Suisse party @ zouk ard Nov 07? That was a crazy night as well. Complaints (we have to admit that the food was terrible), drinking (they were quite niao on the free flows), crapping, & fooling ard.

All in except my AVP & 2 Supervisors. Hmm.
Thats all folks.

It's Over

2008-05-08T02:53:00.002+08:00

-Apologies-

Hes got me a surprise. But I dunno if i shld define that as a surprise.

That point of time, thats when I realised its time to put an end to it (when things didnt even get started?).

I can't help but to feel so numb abt everything. All I can say is, I did try but it doesn't seem to work somehow or rather.

I guess theres another major factor making me feel this way, which is what I have been searching for after so long.

Thanks for the effort & sorry for the disappointment.

*Disappointments are so frequent at times I feel like it has become a significant part of life*

after so long

2007-05-10T23:55:00.000+08:00

okay, its been a pretty long time since i last blogged. life is abt work & study as usual. nothing much to talk abt really.

hmm, school started a couple of weeks arldy but i still cant reduce the no. of days working.. i think i am really addicted.. but anyway, been quite happy with my work though its exhausting. I really wonder if i were to head for F&B industry after graduation. Feels quite dumb if i really do that but at the thought of working in a office, i dont know what to do.

I've marked in my organizer, hp calender, set reminders that no work for me tml! I feel really bad for not keeping my promise last week as i was supposed to meet the gals. Don't know what's got into me. How could I assume they aint meeting. Anyway, Ben kept asking me to work tml today, but i guess i need a rest & it's been long since i caught up with them.

Xuan's love will be joining us tml. Its gonna be fun teasing them again.. & we r FINALLY watching SPIDEY show tml!!! cheers~

christmas eve at pontini

2006-12-25T03:32:00.000+08:00

spent my christmas countdown at pontini..it was chaotic the whole day due to some last min decor for the restaurant...BALLOONS. think everyone's fingers went swollen bcuz of it. but the whole res looked more in a christmas mood due to that.

ade & me were the unlucky gals this yr. cuz wendy will rather die than to wear the santarina costume. urgh. & there were no other gals ard le.plus cindy is helpin out at the office. ade went with e santa ard the hotel to give away sweets while i stayed put in the res. the night seemed long & erm awkward. with all those stupid chefs laughing their heads off like we were their entertainment kit while cooking. URGH.

everything went smoothly for the night and we did not finish closing till late night. There's no present exchange party this yr cuz ben doesnt want it...haiz..but the chefs were nice enough to cook us a feast. There was seafood, pasta, lamb, beef, roasted turky/chicken, sambal fishes blah blah blah & most of it were gone within 1/2 hr. so thats hw hungry everyone were.

juz slightly before 12am, poor me & songhui were trying to lock the main door, but was stuck there struggling with the keys. best part was that our smses were coming in & we couldnt bother much, but to sit there first to reply e smses. in the end, ade came & called the engineering ppl which saved us frm sitting there longer.

bb came to the res as well, and helped herself to the food too. yea. she looked like she hadnt ate the whole day which i found out tt its true. den we chilled out with the staff for awhile for heading home to hit the sack. yes. i have to work for tml lunch as well though its a sunday. feels weird cuz we were nv opened on sundays before. the anticipation of meeting the gals for dinner tml after wrk juz keeps my spirit going on....

this yr's countdwn is so diff. but nevertheless, i guess its still a pretty unique one.

gd turnover

2006-12-22T03:47:00.000+08:00

his speedy recovery makes me feels that prayers do work & god do exists.

tats e best christmas present i think i could prob get i think.

found myself some air to breathe in finally this wk...to chill..to relax...& most importantly, to meet up my budz whom i always rejected going out with.

upset tt i couldnt make it when u gals meet & was wondering how much laughter & fun i missed out with u guys during work. urgh. anyway, it was great to hang out together on the lovely mon. all the shopping...our 800 calories drink...the umbrella tt the 4 of us shared ( though it seemed pretty pointless at the end of the day) but who cares =p

The following are the few amazing things that almost shocked me to death on mon:

1) dione & xuan actualli shopped over $300 at mango on its first day of sales (i am glad i didnt follow that day)

2) wa got this fringe that made me felt like pulling her hair out. well. at least the 3 of us felt tt way. but we decided to be nice to her in the public & also bcuz of the surprise sweets she gave us. hahas

3) xuanie spent all her cash she had tt day. still, shes making a choice which item to buy with that last bit of money. erm okay, i noe....wads new.

4)christmas partying was suppose to be our discussion topic during e chill out coffee session but we ended up chatting about other stuff till we got nothin out of the discussion.

well, for today, i had an early christmas cele with erena gal.....my dear budz, who always complain i dun hav the time for her...heh...oh yea...thanks for the angels and the nice presentation of e prezzie...haha...thats like damn sweet of u...MUACKZ. oh....hope u like e prezzie too gal...erm...yea..dun look at e wrapper la hor...heeeeeee...

had a yummy lunch at chicago steakhouse before watching the 'night at the museum' . the food was fantanstic but dunno why the crowd is always so little no matter when i visit or walk pass there..perhaps the place looked too high class? ppl shld juz look at the variety they have man...& the prices as well...its like my no 1 voted cafe i've ever been to...oh the movie was great too.....i dun mind watching it another time though. this is hw good the movie is, for those ppl who noes i dun catch a movie twice.

the next few days are gonna be hectic at work due to the festive season. oh well, at least i've had my fill of fun & rest for the past few days..so its nt tt bad after all....now......all i am lookin forward to is the christmas cele with e gals...........SLPOVER!

troubled

2006-12-04T02:22:00.000+08:00

never expected this kinda thing to fall on me.

& its so sudden.

so sudden i dunno wad to do.

lookin at him in bed makes me wana cry.

hate myself for paying attention to him only at this pt of time.

so lost right now i cant find a way out.

all i wish for

is for him to get well.

2006-11-21T00:52:00.000+08:00

class is boring.

i wan ERENA back. AHhhhhhhhhhhH

finding time for project. time for friends. time for myself.

saw cousin yf while wrking last sat..got a shock of my life..but happy though cuz its like yrs since we met le. anyway..congrat to u guys for e completion of As..he told me to catch hao mao with a gal @ vivo..but too bad i missed em out. eeew.

work is quite disastrous. slipped in e kitchen & hurt my back..hoping to recover w/o the need to go to e doc. rested on sun but hada be at wrk on mon straight after sch.. it was hellish. every1 is bugging me big time to visit e doc, but instinct tells me there isnt a need to.

kinda felt ridiculous at the thought hw some1 treats u, pretending not knowing u things lidat though we were once so gd. it doesnt seem to matter anymre, cuz as u noe, it takes 2 hands to clap. so shall let it be tt way. being mr nice guy is tiring in the long run esp when e other party doesnt recognize u anymre.

need some quiet moments to myself man.

devoting to studies

2006-11-09T00:52:00.000+08:00

i had decided to be good this sem & had not been missing too many lects. mayb 1 or 2 due to overslping habit but then again, i did my best...-_-

whole sem is so diff w/o erena...somehw or rather..i became independent, nevertheless with e remainin of ssg...

seemed to be devoted to sch n wrk these few wks. not too bad though. as it kept me occupied & didnt make me feel too nua/useless. but a day or 2 off is still a fantastic idea to rest my soul.

e shopping spree last wk at vivo was freakingly lovely. & to think i oly managed to step into 3 stores only. death note was a so-so movie though. & didnt enjoy dinner at akashi. probably bcuz i aint adapted to jap cuisine. made her pretty disappointed cuz she tout i would love the food there. felt bad & wished i had shut my mouth in the first place.

sch's tiring & bored esp i am living in a cycle of wrk,slp, & sch. e shopping spree kept me alive for a day but not the rest of the week, except e enjoyable session yesterday with bb =) lalalala. more outings pls.& so lookin forward to nxt mth..hurr..

few things i wana do badly:

-meet up with wa, xuan
-chilling out with erena gal
-changing my stupid dumb useless lappy tt every1 is mocking at
-getting e uob acct
-tidying up my hair
-holiday

moment of touts

2006-09-21T02:02:00.000+08:00

made me feel like i m fallin into it again.

boy.

dun be so nice.

so caring.

cuz i dunno wad to do.

& i hate to think or to feel.

this holi is e worst i ever encountered..work is smt i dread thinkin of..yet e fun & laughter is smt i will miss in a mth's time. alvin & joe's gayness, elson's thoughfulness, andy's laughter, lydia's seriousness.

gosh. & i do miss erena-her retardedness, zwen-his lameness, ivan-in far far taiwan of his act coolness, & my 2 lovely ladies elena & nixi

so shld i wish for time to be FAST or SLOW. urgh.

xuanie & dione 18th bday

2006-09-19T00:56:00.000+08:00

headed off to pontini for dinner after my attachment w the 2 bday gals, xuan & dione...& wa...saw jon wrking & got a shock cuz its been dunno hw long i've seen him...missed his bad temper & kan-chiongness..haha

& can u believe it. xuan's passion for shoppin nv dies even on her bday..urgh...poor dione for meeting her so early...in e end...i was e 1st to reach...while waiting fer em, went up pool side to look fer bb as shes takin charge of e bar area there for e event..she looked totally like a flower ball which made me walk off immediately b4 i die of hard laughter...hahaha..wa kinda lost her way & needed some time to walk back...hahaha...tout tt was so damn funny...as for e 2 bday gals...they were late for an hr due to their shopping..wads new..was shocked to see dione in her uni den heard she went town straight after her lesson to meet xuan..poor gal..

took some time to look at the menu, but in the end, they asked me to decide for em...urgh.cuz they suppose i noe wads nice...wa didnt even wana open up & see...cool luh..had a 4 course dinner...pizza, then pasta..main course & finally their cakey...& was glad they like e food...

went to the ladies after our main course & started taking pics there...till some1 stepped in...hmmm...got scolded by ade cuz the candle is burnin 1/2 way on our table le..forgot tt i actualli told em to place e cake...& didnt noe we would take so long in the ladies...haha..

e gals were happy with their cake but nt the sabo-taging part i guess...though its a fine dinin res...nevertheless they couldnt nv escape w tt..esp when xuan is always 1 who sabotage ppl...heh.but she got it thru easily...while dione hav to struggle cuz we decide to push 1 of e berries in..=p

we went off as the last guests...but hada walked thru e back area as they alry locked up e main..xuan & bb were fighting to foot the bill cuz she& dione wanted to treat e dinner, but bb wanted to pay for us...haiz...they ended up runnin after each other...in e end..bb let em pay but insisted tt she owes em a treat...

happy birthday to.....

Xuanie!

Dione !

Shan!

Wendy!

Elena!

ice cold beer_soccer match

2006-09-17T00:17:00.000+08:00

had a heavy lunch a siglap coffee club w bb & leo..everything was nice except e wasabi prawn salad..e wasabi tasted so strong tt i tout it would be too unglam for me to puke out...in e end hada drink it dwn w water...

bb went to cut her hair, but leo & i couldnt wait for our dessert since shes nt back for 1/2 hr...was eating 3/5 way thru then she came back & finish it like juz 3 mouthful...wad a way to appreciate e dessert...

went to far east to look fer xuanie's prezzie...saw a lovely top & tout she will like it as well...luckily for her....my taste & preferences r nt much diff frm her...haha..if its for wawa...everything juz look the same to her...tt goes the same for bb...settled dwn w her prezzie...then went to have my fried MARS bar...delicious luhhhhh....kinda stupid nt to hav tried tt esp when i frequent far east so often...

then headed to ice cold beer to watch e 2 soccer matches..by e time the liverpool match ended...i was sleepy but e sisters dun mind staying for the man U match...hmmm...but it was mre exciting anyway...bb ordered alot of drinks till i almost lost count...me & leo were satisfied w our hoegarden...e chicx wings & pizza were yummy...& of cuz e wedges as well...hurrr..

e heavy wrkload

2006-09-12T22:30:00.000+08:00

yea. can feel tt e director is expecting mre & mre frm me. juz gave me an assignment tts to collect at least $300,000 from the M1 debtors owing > $700 within a mth...

thats like so impossible..esp we have to do follow ups, & new batches everyday...dun think i would hav the time to handle tt larr....haiz....somemre she handed the tougher case of higher debt amt to me...

this company is driving me nuts. 1 more mth to go......

sleepover at wa's hse

2006-09-10T03:02:00.000+08:00

bb brought me & mum to corpthorne cafe brios' for the buffet sunday brunch...had a seafood spread...desserts esp the waffles, fondue, & desserts were yummy...e pasta at e end made me so full i almost had to give up my desserts..bb had her free flow of champagne while me & mum went for the juices..

the sky went dark after our makan...made us felt even sleepier. nua-ed at piano bar for abt an hr b4 sending my mum back hme...then me & bb headed to town to meet wa...bb brought quite a lot of bks (dan brown)-juz nice..i can read as well =) & her magazines on wine/food....wads new..in the end met wa at ard 5+ though we agreed on 3 last night..haha..

xuan could oni knock off at 6+...played pool while waiting fer her at cine...went for the movie tt xuan's been bugging us to..'prada wears devil' niceee show...=) xuan wanted to shop after e movie which's at ard 10pm....3 of us rolled our eyes..final decision is still pool-ing after all...played till 1130, before me xuan & wa went to wa's hse, for overnight mahjong...then bb went back hme to rest..

xuan fell flat & couldnt resist slping unglam-ly on e bus..had a nice relaxing conversation with wa on the other hand for e 1 hr bus ride...abt pri sch...our surroundings...memories & things lidat....the time passed fast, & luckily xuan's nt a heavy slper...managed to wake her up on time..went back wa's place...showered...then had some cereal for supper before goin into her room to chill...dun realli know whr our conversation stopped till...was amazing tt we fell aslp while chatting...to think we were actualli here for mahjong...urgh...

woke up the nxt morn, but xuan went off to wrk lu...her 1st day doing e mooncake stocktaking stuff...coool...gonna wait for her treat since shes making big bucks by end of e mth...haha..i hurried off to the loansharky company too...met joe at tiong bus stop...we were running late..bt was determined nt to take cab...cuz its an absolute foolish thing to do...given our salary status...but we were lucky to reach there on time...phew.

screwed up wrk

2006-09-09T02:21:00.000+08:00

wrk was so screwed up.

poured ice water into a guest's glass though shes having sparkling (all due to stupid absence of lemon) & got stared big time by julie.

a table at my station complained there was no service. ben was very upset abt it by their nasty remarks.

had a small meeting after everything at the back. ben was upset abt service we gave nowadays. heard tt there were 6 complaints so far. seemed like me & bb were the main targets. felt so lousy esp when u noe u r doing ur best alrdy.

were unhappy abt each other cuz i blamed myself for nt being a gd helper, yet she's upset y i pushed the blame onto myself.

wad a day.

work after work

2006-09-07T02:27:00.000+08:00

wanted to go for a swim after wrk to chill & relax..but bb called at 5 asking me for help cuz res is realli short handed...went hme straight after wrk to get my stuff then took a cab then. urgh. forgot tt cab drivers r blood eaters nowdays...but couldnt help it as it was rainin & i was already late..

reached at 7...realised i was e runner. almost flipped. gonna be so tiring. it seemed like a sat today cuz res is like full hse. almost had a war at my side between the chef & my colleagues as the food was realli realli slow & the guests were complaining. stood there not knowing wad to do also.

jacky called adi, my other runner to help out at room service cuz they r short handed. but he did nt realise the no. of glasses, utensils that had nt been wiped yet. starting wiping the utensils since 10 & when i finally finished all...i stared at the dozen of racks..........complained to bb i couldnt possibly finish everything, den she got ben to help me...after tt, every1 came to help after they r donee w their own things. tts the best thing tt happened to me for today i think.

ended wrk at abt 1...sat dwn & ate e burger which is supposedly my dinner. except the fact tt the stupid kitchen staff ate my fries away......but got screwed up badly by bb. heh.

gotta be at wrk at 9 tml...hoping pris nt ard so she wont see my sleepy look again.

dinner at new park hotel

2006-09-03T01:51:00.000+08:00

the miracle...

bb came over my place b4 going ikea for our meatballs, & yummy chicx wings...missed em so much...den walked to queensway n passed by this place with those machines containing stuff toys de...saw this stitch in pirates outfit & tout i looked damn cute...then bb decided to give it a try...so she changed some coins...who knoes we got it at the 1st go! hahaha...cuz she accidentally pressed too fast...& it so happens tt its landed at the right spot..so lucky luh...even the storekeeper & the guy nxt to us was dumbfounded...guessed he muz have spent quite alot on e machine nxt to us already..hahaa

went to cold storage for some groceries...wah...gt so much lovely chocos, tidbits, snacks, & my fav ben & jerrys. yummy. afraid they cant last me fer 2 wks...haha...she got me those so tt i can munch on smt during wrk...

aftertt went for the chinese ala-carte dinner at new park hotel, my sis's wrkplace...she gt this $100 voucher ma...den bb came along..cuz my mum asked her to....weird. anyway, my mum kept talkin to her larrr...urgh....the dinner was fantastic....all e dishes were simply delicious...gonna go there some other day again...eveb bb, the most fussy eater in the wrld, likes the food as well....haha...

ate till wana puke...den walked over to this ktv-pub...haha...my mum came along too...obviously she doesnt take the beer my sis n bb ordered...she was happily munchin the nuts, n drinkin the plain water...enjoying her smoke at the same time of cuz...sis n bb were happily ordering songs n singing...& me playin the machine game...was so stoned and sleepy after the dinner..

went back hme.....n cant help but to frown upon the tout of nxt day's wrk.

oh yea.. happy birthday to him.

tiring day

2006-09-02T01:39:00.000+08:00

ended wrk early today...at 6....had dinner at the pasta cafe opp MOS burger in taka with jovial...pasta niceeee......didnt regret spending on tt at all...

den erena smsed me asked me to join her and zwen...so coincidental loh...so we met up together...they went shopping earlier on...but didnt see anything they bought...haha...chilled out & acc zwen to e guys' departmental stores for awhile to look for his shirts for awhile den went back hme...cuz i had a mahjong appointment with guorong, his neighbour, shichang at gr's hse....played till mornin luh...ard 6 am....so tired..in the end..chang lost the most...i oni lost $3..haha...big winner is hao mao of cuz.

nxt day went to wrk like a walkin zombie...kept hiding my yawns frm e director larr....luckily wrked 1/2 day oni...after wrk went to orchard to get some stuff b4 heading to pontini to work...eeew...who knows y i hada be the runner for the day...other days not tired tt time den kana hostess...of all days luh....somemr, 1st time be runner..on a sat also...dunno y its nt adeline...cuz shes always the runner...

went to piano bar w e gang after wrk to chill...made me mre restless.....glad tt i dun hav to wrk on suns anymre nw tt the shop is closed. but gotta meet bb up for our lunch appointment at ikea...

Lousinstan Co - deadly attachment

2006-08-28T01:24:00.000+08:00

yea. got attached to this lousintan company at henderson industrial park..initially was w 3 other gals i noe in my sch, then all gt transferred to elsewhr, cuz they wanted 1 person oni....who ask me to stay e nearest dere..urgh.

reached there on time actualli, but the 2 guys frm nyp, namely joe & elson got there so early, and made me feel like i m so late. haiz..& i didnt come prepared lo...w/o pen, paper...so when they kept on taking dwn notes...i am like at a loss...can only pay close attention to wad they say.

luckily did some research on e company, cuz e director actualli asked us wad we noe abt e company...phew...tt time the liason officer doesnt even noe wad the company is doin luh....hada go online to check their website out..in the end, its some credit management company...yea....it sounds pretty professional...but, wad we hada do all day is to call the debtors up and press them for payment of their bills (hospital, M1)

got a cosy comfy seat at a corner, at least nt in the middle of nowhr, nor in frt of e offices & the strong air con..phew..tts the oni thing i m glad of ba...n my colleagues are fun loving too...so nt so bad....dinner time is also a look forward thing to, and of cuz..knock off time as well.

Parting with TAXI APPAREL

2006-08-21T00:19:00.000+08:00

testing out her new d.cam

they make me =)

da pi gu!

frt

the super cosy counter

e crazy ppl

the fun loving one

was supposed to work at bugis today after e fms paper, but realised i really dun hav enough time to revise for the nxt 2 papers...hada seek serene for help b4 entering the exam hall...wanted very much to work actually, cuz tml is the last day of taxi apparel le...gonna miss my naggy boss, n the crazy colleagues...well, not those irritating xiao long nus of cuz.

made my way dwn to bugis after all, to get my pay, as well as to see e shop again...like so sad larr...the comfy counter we hav, the messiness in the cupboard.......urgh. y muz they move.

bb's bday

2006-08-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

in e cable car

trying to smile despite the yucky tomato soup

lining up for e cable car ride

the best food she like for the dinner

celebrated bb's bday at M hotel...1st day went for dinner with kris near clark quay, some Aus restaurant..ambience nt bad, but the food a little disappointing...den she had her friends/colleagues with her at the lounge, & she bought 2 vodka & 2 chivas at a shot (gt this 1 for 1 special-so nt tt bad) managed to stop her frm blabbering all her unhappiness of her wrk to pontini staff as she was getting tipsy. I think all her pals wan her dead larrr...one killer drink after another...eeew.

had dinner at Mt faber sky dining with her on the actual day...so cool larrr...having dinner on e cable car....1st time experiencing tt though.. but had a hard time arranging for it, cuz u hada email/fax & do alot of stuff larr...haiz...n in the end, the arrangement screwed up...her doners for her beef, & it turned out to be tomato soup(she hates tt most) instead of e mushrm soup arranged...though i was pretty angry, but hada keep cool cuz she seemed more frustrated tt my efforts were wasted...haiyo.

she hada returned to wrk on a SUN. haiz. so i rested first. but it was fast though. she came back like in a split sec. aftertt went to swensens to have our lunch..yummy larrr....but was so full we couldnt take the dessert anymre. wad a waste. went for a movie after tt, & she bought a swatch watch for her sis as the bday prezzie..at night met up with her sis, & went to this irish pub to chill out...great food, and ambience...=)

5 km marathon

2006-07-16T05:03:00.000+08:00

yep. its a sun morn.....n i woke up at 6 am.....to prepare fer e run @ marina square....the 5 km evil run...erena was e victim tt gt dragged in by me under forced circumtances...hee..anyway...the bus was late...didnt even hav time to do warm up...the race was abt to start wehn we reached there...haiz....

the 5 km run seemed nv ending...esp when i cant rmb when was e last time i did a long distance run..had cramps along the way....juz my luck...

leg was aching like hell by e end of the whole thing...n spent abt 2 hrs to retreive e cert......went to spaghetties with the gals n headed to wrk after tt.......its realli realli tiring.....couldnt knock off early also...so irritating....urgh...n worst of all...wanted her to rest at hme so didnt meet her up fer dinner...bt hu noes she met her friend instead to chill out n drink.......wahhhhhh.....my nerves almost burst mannn....grrr.....

headed hme with my whole body aching...laid flat on my beddy immediately without doing my tutorials...

18th bday

2006-06-24T04:43:00.000+08:00

had a memorable bday this yr...=)

bb booked a rm at M hotel fer 3 days fer us to nua...it was definitely a good nua-ing session. too bad nxt day she gotta wrk in the evening. n me....will be going to pontini with the grp fer dinner..hurr..

anyway..had a wonderful dinner at oriental hotel...a restaurant tt jacky our new AM used to wrk in. n so...we were supposed to go there as regulars of him...of cuz...we were given gd treatment...bt bb beef tenderloin's doners was nt wad she wanted. they got it changed bt it came back with the froth n foie gras missing...they felt bad n decided to take her starters n main course off the bill...which is gd at e end of e day...if nt i will scream at her when the bill comes...which i still did in the end.but the overall dinner's enjoyable...even gt a surprise cakey frm em..

on e actual day..i met wa n xuan 1st fer some light shoppin...b4 going over to meet the guys at pontini..11 of us were there...felt kinda bad fer dining in cuz its a sat..n its like full hse...dione came too! hurr...all of us were shocked cuz didnt see her fer so long le...every1 was happy with e food....n i got my fav truffle cake! hee.....n bb was e 1 hu presented it to me..waited fer bb after wrk n went back to nua...as usual...

e nxt day went shoppin with her n leo....realli went fer a spree.....hee...gt a lovely surprise frm her....had dinner at nydc...yummy baked rice..........decided to go back by bus cuz all e cab drivers seemed to be dead.......with all e bulky stuff......urgh...

went back n dozed off immediately..........so shiok......keke

misses

2006-06-02T00:10:00.000+08:00

i hate grumpy days.

therefore. i hate this wk.

so sorry u gotta suffer due to tt temper of mine.

urgh.

kill all the freaking projects............

well..nvm. at least theres smt fer me to look forward to after AAA test this sat..=)

we haven caught up with each other fer 5 days le.

boy. i do miss her.

nice meetup

2006-05-18T15:21:00.000+08:00

reached sch earlier jux nw to hav lunch with wa n xuan..had some difficulties finding canteen 3 cuz i've been dere once so far..had chinese mixture rice n caught up with one another...hmmm...seemed like its the nicest lunch i had this sem..=) guess thurs is the oni day tt 3 of us r free at e same time..soooo..i dun mind coming to sch earlier fer tt..hee..

bb was sick on tues. i ended sch pretty early n realised i need nt have to wrk at parco..bt went to pontini eventualli to find bb. she was suffering with pale lips n pain ass. gt me so worried.brought to the clinic at gwc n she was told tt she caught a stomach flu..was given a MC of cuz. but dumb her still had the tout of going back to wrk..urgh. guess i muz change face b4 she realli decide to change outta her uni. oh well. nw shes betta..its time fer piggyback rides again..hurrrrrrrrr..

ok. i m bored in this IS class..some life sci thingy..wahhhhhhhh. kill me mann..n nxt wk there's this field trip to tiger beer factory..sounds boring..n guess wad. we even hada pay $5 on tt...the sch is realli hard up on cash i suppose...

oh ya.wrk at pontini last night..wahh..i got a shock when julie was giving the briefing. till den i gt to noe tt aung,ed,hein n gerard(hes gt his new love) brought their gfs to e restaurant to eat...n i tout shes jokin...but i was convinced when i saw em 10mins later..eeew. bt anyway..met gerard's gf..n i feel t hes gt the right gal..=) n so..they came in a grp of 9..the extra 1 is jon..i feel sad fer him..bt he was acting like a spoilt brat showing off to us tt he NEED NT wrk..urgh.

at e end of e dinner, they were pretty gone..due to the 6 bottles of wines..haha..heard they all puke..aung was still feeling ok n he helped out with the clearing..n guess wad.they almost thank n said gdbye to the guests when they were over at the runner station..tts hw sensitive wrk is..
the guys wanted to buy bb fadz they all supper..but all were drunk in the end..esp jon..haiyo..so the supper was cancelled. i decided to head hme as well cuz i wasnt hungry..(had the yummy 4 cheese pizza with shrooms..all thanks to shan. hee.)

dinner at pontini

2006-05-02T02:59:00.000+08:00

k..it seems quite rusty here...ok..sch had started fer a wk le...n i went fer...um...2 times....urm..ya...i juz juz juz couldnt wake up on time mannn...urgh..guess i needa get myself a louder alarm clock..every1 looked e same to me somehw or rather..so nth special to talk abt larr...bt sch fees n everything kinda gt screwed up..n i dunno y too...gotta find out tml le...

wanted to head fer bugis today to whack seiyu sales..in the end went to marina...bt b4 tt...had a sinful choco ice cream fondue at haigen daz with ade n leo...its.........heaven. hee....gonna check out the cheese foundue at suntec somewhr nxt wk...=)

walked ard...didnt saw much pretty stuff...landed at orchard eventually n spent again...i felt so relaxed fer the whole shopping trip...seemed like ages since i could get to go out freely fer the whole day w/o any wrk...bb called ard 2+ bt couldnt hear my phone...dunno wads wrong with the ascending ring tone...urgh. gt frustrated trying to figure it out fer the whole day..bt anyway..she wanted to hav lunch n shoppin with me...like...wow. miracle...haha..bt gotta keep mum abt being out with her sis n ade..

wanted to surprise bb n e rest juz nw for dining in at pontini..oh well..it turned out not to be an enjoyable dinner after all.. shld have taken note of the term 'respect' n at least let her noe abt it..oh well nvm...wonder hw m i gonna survive at wrk on this wed..

gotta Zzzz..have 4 mre hrs of rest b4 sch le...

tough

2006-04-08T02:38:00.000+08:00

had a great day out with gal yesterday...we saw each other like we nv did fer decades lidat..haha...had pasta mania fer lunch...den walked awhile with her..haiz..wanted to meet her fer the whole day de..bt last min notice thingy again..was told pontini needed ppl BADLY. so i met her at 1 n left at ard 330..oh..I M EARLY FER ONCE. hee...i think she was shocked too..n she like the prezzie tt i gt fer her in bangkok...all thanks to my gd taste..keke.

so rushed off to pontini n reached ard 4...4gt the function is gonna be inside the res..so i walked all the way to V4. urgh. gt a lame joke frm LLL abt the napkins..n it gt me started with wrk. oh. n guess wad. i was e hostess AGAIN. it wasnt so bored after all cuz i helped out with the clearing n serving of tea/coffee. n i forgot to write the reservation fer nxt day..update e board. n almost forgot abt locking the doors.urgh.dunno hw m i goin to wrk fer WGS with my sotong state nw.

oh yea..went with her to nie's chalet on wed after wrk..her 18 da shou. saw yeo n marcus dere too other den their usual clique. they r still the same loh..urgh.wads new..they gt me laughing fer the whole night larr..oh..nie gt a 4 or 5 stacked up pandan bday cake fer playing..with 3 sausages posing as candles..haha..hmmm..was glad to see every1's friendliness again..even shaun n vince...didnt stay fer long though..we went off after awhile after cutting her cake n the cake-fight...it was a mess AGAIN.

times passed pretty fast at wrk today..sales was unexpectedly gd..=) gt hme after wrk..nua..n dozed off. woke up to catch wishing stairs..still scary though its e 2nd time watchin it..mum almost wanted to switch it off..bt my screamin won.hahahahaha.

hmm..class gonna be short of 1 person nxt sem le. hw i wished it was a joke like last sem wad he said to me. i bet erena felt the same too. oh well.

still curious abt wad i saw. guess as much they r back together again le ba..

a disappointment i gave

2006-04-04T23:35:00.000+08:00

urgh. was supposed to help cin out with the painting at her new hse. n guess wad..i woke up realli late..plus my batt-less hp wasnt on..so i couldnt receive her calls/smses. haiz..in the end i finally woke up at 3.30..gosh larr...tried my luck n turned on hp oni to see her pissed-off smses..urgh...can oni apologize.

spent the day nuaing after tt continuous 11 days wrk..felt even mre tired..-__- wanted to bring mum out fer steamboat or smt..bt sis came hme realli early..we called fer delivery instead...n well..she juz couldnt stand herself being hme so early..n out she went at 10+ after a call..wads new.

feels weird w/0 a hp. wonder hw would life be if wa didnt provide me with the temp hp. well..juz hada save up b4 getting a gd 1 on my own.

was asked to help out on thurs at pontini..my schedule kept changing..so in the 1st place was supposed to meet leo out fer our soupy dinner at marche. den nxt was told i needed to wrk. n nxt moment dun need. urgh..so decided to meet erena den perhaps go off ard 530. so long haven seen her le...missed her soo much larrr..n hopefully we can get into the same ideal IS course..hmm..i betta wake up early fer the enrolment apptm mann..

its been a long time since i wrked at swiss club. bt ever since xuan told me abt tt guy. it feels creepy to go dere again. all i hav to say is. gd luck xuan. haha..

i made several dreams lately.
so weird. i dunno if i shld be happy or sad.
tt those r oni dreams.

Scared her to death

2006-04-02T04:09:00.000+08:00

i promised to celebrate all occasions with her.

hurr. n i did.

i almost got her into hospital.

i guess its the most unforgetful occasion fer her.

hee.

Happy April's Fool.

waHahAha.

post results fear

2006-03-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

results r gonna be out tml.

tml.tml.tml.

n yes. tt marks my official dooms day.

urgh.

bangkok trip!

2006-03-21T23:47:00.000+08:00

the trip was relaxing n shiok till i dread the tout abt returning home.

the endless shopping fer cheap stuff tt u can nv find in s'pore was exciting..

nice roadside food were heavenly.

the american breakfast buffet is like...=) esp the pancakes.

A&W as well as KFC seemed to be like the best fast food i ever eaten..

n yes...dunkin donuts were sooooooo yummy! n CHEAP.

gotten lots of bags n shoes till i gave a fright to myself as well as bb when we r packing hme.

had a hard time slping as usual..bt a gd time nuaing at the tv in the comfy bed.

the trip to erawan shrine was futile. esp when i have to face the bad yr ahead of me.

its scary to noe wad her dad said to her. i m still remaining calm though..

i've nv felt so relaxed fer so long..enjoyed the trip as well as the shopping.

nw back to s'pore. ya..starting wrk tml. n i wonder when's the next off day. eeeew.

bangkok trip photos

2006-03-21T11:19:00.000+08:00

dreadful day

2006-03-15T00:39:00.000+08:00

was late fer wrk yesterday n was supposed to do the opening..argh. 1 hr late la...haiz...was shocked to see my boss near closing today...n had a hard time building up my courage to tell him abt it..luckily he pardoned me..=) nw juz praying tt the management doesnt fine him on it..

the day passed quite fast today...at least nt tt 1 min=1 hr rate...this customer seemed to like me alot. she literally bought everything i asked her to..both yesterday n today...n the total she spent on is like $400 on these 2 days..connie almost gt shocked n died. hurr..

juz gt to noe i hada wrk tml. cuz stocks are arriving n its gonna be hellish..heart nearly dropped..tout could rest after the 8 consecutive days there..bt it added up to be 9 instead..nw i hada give up the nice outing i m gonna have with wa n xuan tml..wad a day tt i hav been lookin forward to......

mum's been irritating me non stop. cant stand it. cant i juz settle dwn dere to watch the tv...she juz hav to probe n probe..i mean..its nt like as though i dun wana tok to her..bt the qns she asked is ridiculous n nxt she starts nagging. i need peace.

i dunno y.
bt it seemed tt u made me wonder suddenly.
hw've u been.
flashbacks kept occuring.
n it seriously bugs me.

an awaited trip

2006-03-13T00:18:00.000+08:00

Aus aunt dropped by s'pore today...after which shes going to penang to find her friends..didnt realise my mum went out early to meet her larr..if nt i can hav lunch with them b4 going fer wrk...i was still late after all..haiz..anyway..mum told me she still look as youthful as the last time we saw her...abt 2 yrs back? glad to hear tt..she asked mum to go over aus with her...she wanted to pay fer all her expenses...hmm...to me..its her own sis after all..so i think its ok fer mum to accept it..mum loves travelling since young..was hopin fer her go over n relax esp after all the hard wrk she put in fer the family over the yrs..bt she rejected it instantly..was trying hard to persuade her..even suggested giving her money to go over to spend..getting advance pay frm my kind boss isnt tough after all..its actualli alrite if i hav to wrk harder in the nxt couple of mths..bt she doesnt understand. haiz..

the trip to bangkok made me feel so bad after i learnt tt mum rejected her aus trip cuz she cant put the family down. smetimes.. i juz hope i can quit studying. wrk full time. save up. n bring her fer a trip. bt i noe its a silly thinkin bcuz i dun wana end up w/o a cert. frm a careless mistake i made abt entering JC..i had no choice bt to go poly..luckily..theres this course tt i m interested in.. well.. she appeared fine when i told her i m going with someone else's family. its like..'u r going on a trip with ur fren's family instead of ur own?' cuz she noes i will probably scold her fer being unreasonable if she comments on it. i guess its time to put myself in her shoes n pay more attention to her.

if shes ever literate. hope she will read this. SORRY MUM.

still...i m excited abt the trip..bt i cant deny the fact tt the matter is still troubling me..alot. plus the uncomfort when i am facing the folks tt seemed scary to me...i hav always been hoping everything sticks back to our original plan. obviously it will nt come true. i realli miss eileen...n the conversation we had abt the trip.

juz told bb the idea of me opening up a bakery in the future..(with a tiny station tt sells unique chocolates frm overseas) since i m in the habit of eating bread fer 3 meals nowadays..n the conversation went FAR. she suggested a cafe..as she cant wrk in a place w/o alcohol, she cant bake. i suggested the cashier position fer her though..hurr..hmMm.. quite worried abt the in-hse consumption if she ever opens one.. haha..

saw gal and elaine today at wrk..they juz came frm the bAoc meeting...gonna miss out this opportunity to earn the CCA pts due to my wrk schedule..haiz..was so entertained by gal..haha...STUPID ERENA. this was wad she did.
--> was OBVIOUSLY holding pastamania drink.
--> asked me to guess wad they had fer lunch..-__-
--> instantly turned over to hide her drink.. shes like sooo retarded. tts y i love her so much..wahaha..

was havin nice heart to heart conversation with connie.. n i was mentionin tt i miss yumin..our ex colleague.. the nxt moment. she appeared. gosh... i cant believe tt loh..somemore i did nt hav a chance to bump into her..its so freaky like the last time me and poon were at queenstown stadium in the morn fer a jog..n we talked abt shi chang..den he appeared the next min.. i realli had goosebumps mann..its so unexpected to see familiar faces in a remote stadium..but anyway...was glad tt she's appealing fer SIM nw..n she looked so much like a human..haha..her hair is sooo much decent n proper..last time hada worry abt her cuz she was slackish in JC n rather skip all her classes to wrk n hang out till wee hrs..okie..shes still as loud..n she said smt like MOS-ing on 31/3..-__-

leo was feelin dwn cuz of her wisdom tooth thingy..wah..the way she describe the pain...i can feel it ah...poor her...=( hopefully she will hav a speedy recovery...*wed eye candy! may he heal ur bitter eyes...as well as ur pain!

i dun feel like going anywhr after wrk recently..dun even feel like meeting anyone..feels gd to be nua at hme afterall..the train of thoughts in my head in seriously bugging me.. yet i hav to pretend like as though nth is happening..

her sorrows again

2006-03-11T04:32:00.000+08:00

was hme realli early juz nw..initially was supposed to go shin bar with colleagues..but was nt feeling well n didnt felt like going...went hme n zzzzzz all the way..it feels good to rest lidat...

woke up..realised she's suffering shit at wrk again..urgh..wads new. haiz..but at the end of the day..i felt tt the comments shld nt be taken to heart cuz they aint worth it..i cant believe tt those irresponsible ppl leaving everything behind can still have the guts to find trouble with those loyal ones. wads the world coming to man..

hate to ask her wad happened..cuz it will make her think abt those irritating issues again..but since shes nt putting em dwn..so might as well..at least it can be lighter after sharing..felt relieved after the call i made to her..at least it forced out tt bit of laughter in her..hope shes resting well nw..

anyway...

WORMY BAO found my black/white checkered lanyard! yipeee............! thanks alot worrr....*bao ah..does tt sound excited enuff...? heee

wa and long came to look fer me yesterday...gave me a shocking surprise..haha...she finally cut her hair...n shes no longer tt fringe-less gal...hehe...i love tt style of hers...much much much betta man...i wonder if shes coping fine without her happy potter tail of hers...hahaha..but anyway...i give 2 thumbs up fer her new look!

tonning over at bao's place this coming wed..gonna be a rest-less night again...shall control abt the snacking part..hee..den meeting the gals on thurs...b4 my trip..i am so so so looking forward fer wed to come...urgh.

i wonder when will be the majong session at wa's place...cant wait xia..n her bday! hee...its coming...a big day hurr...a day tt officially starts adulthood..hmm..cant believe shes turning 18 b4 us...n shes gonna suan ppl again....

kind things juz cant get into my way..=( erena gal told me tt shes wrking at bugis seiyu larrr...i was so excited when i saw the 1st part of the sms..den realised its on 16-20...the days tt i am NT wrking...oh gosh...tell me abt it mann...to think can knock off together...makan together...haha..the part tt she told me she hada eat with those aunties made me laugh like hell..keke..but hey...they are niceee ppl too wor........except when they dun start nagging larr....=) hope gal will cope fine over there...she seemed troubled over her dance too...hmmm..i betta invent smething fast tt helps her nt to think abt those issues...i will i will...........

i have learnt to throw troubling matters aside.
hw abt u.

i dun wana care

2006-03-08T04:24:00.000+08:00

gosh. i cant believe the bangkok trip is like arriving.

everything's been settled. n i certainly hope i will put tt matter aside.

its tiring upon the tout tt i will have to stay in the shop for the next 8 days. i hope stocks will come to keep me occupied. every min seemed like a day. n xiao long nus betta not irritate me....

had a great time chillin out with em earlier on. awaiting for 16/3 to come fer the next chill out. i guess i will work towards tt day ba...

there isnt enough time fer me to indulge in my thoughts. will definitely take the next few days to do so.

it still feels good to be lied to at times.
n to be unaware of things.
truth arent always the best.
esp when it makes u wonder.

at a loss

2006-03-05T04:05:00.000+08:00

i m finally done with all the modules..

the poa paper seemed to be full of careless mistakes to me..but the tout tt i dun hava study till puke made me smile all the way.

went makan with erena n nixi at clementi after the paper. didnt hav much appetite..den proceeded to jurong pt fer some mini shopping session with erena..hee..as usual..had a hard laugh along the way..wahaha..n we finally gt our couple earrings...=p it feels niceee chilling out with her esp after the days of studying n nt contacting much with each other... anyway...like to thank her sooooo much! realli appreciate tt effort of hers to confirm if i woke up on time fer exams nt...those calls were so sweet to me.

its juz the smallest thing tt makes a person's day. thanks gal. great to hav ya ard. =) i certainly hope i dun hav to wrk during e holidays..so we can go crazy n relax together..but i am glad u r understanding..oh yea..wait fer my gifts worrrr. kekeke.

its been a bad yr.

he's realli jobless.
shes still nt contributing.
it feels tired being independent.
i wish to be like any other teenagers.

tt harrassment tts reoccurring now is seriously killing me. i wonder y such psychotic guys exist. hes forcing me to my limits.

a small issue grew into a big one. n even caused so much unhappiness n anger. n wads saddening. the screaming, n refusal to listen. n the tout tt i treat him like shit. which i DUN.

confused with all the diff kind of complicated issues. n i wonder y they all came at a shot.

been ages since i caught up with tt few budz of mine. missed their accompany n times we spent together..her. the sudden tout tt the friendship burst bcuz of wadever reason stabs me. i wonder hws she doin. perhaps she cant accept me fer whu i am. bt i am still the old me. well..the lib chillouts in the past r still my best memories..

i desire for more time to stone. to think. n to enjoy peace.

end of suffering

2006-02-25T06:42:00.000+08:00

had been mugging. mugging. mugging. these few days.

felt so dead. so lifeless.

I AM SO GOING TO REJOICE IN ANOTHER 4.5 HRS.

tts marks the end of the major suffering of studying management.

kill me man.

argh.

still bad luck

2006-02-20T11:59:00.000+08:00

today's MS excel exam wasnt a success. stayed up all night yesterday to finish up the undone excercises...er..except some doze off sessions larr...-_- i noe i CANNOT slp further esp when the test is at 9am..argh. somehw or rather..i was still late..so oni manage to finish 1/2 of the paper...who ask me to be super slow when it comes to the formulaes n everything...

was sitting beside han during the test..he seemed to be at a very fast pace..which stressed me like shit..told him after class abt the loss of the grey/white checkered lanyard he got me..felt super guilty..haiz..i guess he didnt feel too gd as well..bt i m glad he still consoled me, telling me he would find me another 1...=)

was being guai today..its been a long time ever since i go home straight after sch le..i guess it realli time to study fer the exam..screwed up too many modules this term le..wonder wads wrong mannn. nixi elena asked me to join em at mac fer overnight studying..it doesnt seemed too futile though..in fact, i think i will end up slping dere..hurr..

i am glad this sem is coming to an end.
it seemed tt i dun click with any of the modules.
n they r out to fail me.
well. they r left with a wk though.
too bad.

bad luck

2006-02-17T19:30:00.000+08:00

left was hellish ever since the day of my loss of hp..

i REALLY REALLY hate slping in sch's lib nw..nv knew such evil ppl exists...

juz found out like 2 days ago exams are coming next week...n to think i still had tt assumption tt nxt wk is study wk...argh..hw nice..

had a new job at swiss club...highest paying job i ever had...wrked dere e 2nd time last evening...was beat tired..walked out of econs class 1/2 way cuz it's 545...n i realli ran to the bus stop...nice feeling to run again after so long...but aint tt nice to be running in tt panicky state..still...missed the bus..took a cab in...cuz....i guess it'll take me 2 hrs to go in by foot...

the thought of going pontini to find her after wrk diminishes as i realised 'i realli cant make it le' its been a long day..moreover..still irritated with jonathan for freaking me up on valentine for nothin...juz bcuz he tout i purposely didnt wana work..haiz..it juz doesnt pay to be kind. now i noe..still...i put his nasty remark aside n helped out at the back...cuz poor her was doin all the things alone...the others? well..those beside her doesnt seem to be of much help..nw i noe e reason fer her aging process le...

heard frm sis tt she was feelin upset abt tt freakin letter..woke up immediately n called her..but she didnt pick up..felt bad tt i wasnt dere fer her when she needed some words of comfort.. juz gt to noe wad tt complaint is abt...freaking guest...make a big fuss over such a small matter..every1 may nt trust her tt she did inform the guest abt every detail tt she noes...but i will. cuz i trust tt she's nt some1 whom will deny n run when there's some shit to face. wadever it is...i hope shes feeling betta...*look at e lovely thingy on top of ur radio larrr*=p

i m juz praying tt shit stops going to her. if it does. i guess its got something to do with my bad dragon year thingy le...argh.

some matters kept ringing in my head..they juz couldnt get off..esp when so many shit happened lately..fer nw. i juz wana indulge in my exams. everythin else, we'll talk latr.

it feels tt things had changed
n i dunno y.
perhaps its time.

love my gal

2006-02-15T02:09:00.000+08:00

i've gt such a wonderful classmate.

i dun think she fits the title of classmate..shes like my joy, crapping partner, n a soulmate of mine..

she's perhaps the oni reason tt tells me 'its right to be in poly n in BFS'

pang seh-ed her several times when i promised to go out with her...some unlucky things juz hada happen tt make me break my promise..haiz..anyway..went out with her...its kinda a post valentine celebration..haha...i was late as usual..=p n poor gal hada wait fer me again...

she gt me ferrero rocher! love ya erena..muackiez. so sweet to think of buyin me smt as valentine gift..hee..well fer me...i treated her lunch at pepper lunch..we had a mini candlelight lunch k...hee..*oni she will understand* this gift of mine went dwn her tummy too fast..=( but i m glad she loved the food.

it was a great outing...shopping..our gd deals...crapping..*make up....BAG* lalala..much more much more...n gal gt her wallet at last..haha...had a tough time figuring which color n design suits her...so vexing...cuz everythin seemed niceee....eeew.

abt 7+ after i depart with erena, met her..she was dressed up as she promised to the previous day..haiz...things were ok initially. but i guess i screwed things up...tt clash of thinkings. haiz..wadever...dere goes the nice outing we've been lookin forward to..ended up at kopitiam across corpthorne. lots joined us..and left...by e end of everything..i realised 18 bottles of beer was opened. eeerr. i m surprised shes still ok by everythin..

surprised

2006-01-26T09:52:00.000+08:00

i was surprised the sight of her made all tt unhappiness swim away.

unhappy thoughts could still be revolving ard in my mind bt tt effort of hers to cheer me up kicked em away.

the sweet surprise was shockin yet so pleasant n sincere.

i m glad things got back into place. =)

in pain

2006-01-24T03:22:00.000+08:00

every single line tt pops up behaved like a needle.

the anger she vented may appear to be her old usual doings.

n tt 'sorry' after the venting session is over.

but it left me in pain.motionless.disappointed.

she juz couldnt wait fer me to finish my lines in the beginning of the conversation.

gd intentions were being overlooked.worst still. overturned.

i didnt know i acted like a irresponsible, selfish person to her.

nv felt so terrible after such a long time.

the pain inflicted went deeper n deeper n deeper. as the lines pop out 1 by 1 continuously. heartlessly.

esp when she HAD to emphasize 'at least' and capitalize 'ATTEMPT' in 1 of the needles she poked into me.

a nice conversation i wanted to have was screwed up juz like tt. juz like tt. nt even giving me a chance to console her abt wrk n things like tt.

yes.it screwed up juz lidat.

all i wanted to say is. my sis wana meet her tml. n i will be coming. followed by the thoughts tt i missed telling her the night b4 cuz i needed some time alone den.

i didnt noe wanting some time to calm thoughts dwn could be a crime.till juz.

but i guess nw. oni the msg tt 'my sis is gonna meet her tml' makes pt nw.

nw i wish some1 will stand in frt of me to kill me more den u do.
classes? early slp? at this rate i am feelin now? tell me wads tt man.

teach me to forget n forgive.if nt. i need peace.

out with them and her

2006-01-15T03:27:00.000+08:00

my nana gal was sick..wondered hw is she feeling nw..hope u r fine gal..i missed tt jumpy irritating u..and ya..of cuz ur retarded voice..haha..get well get well get well..! if nt i will play that 'look fer the words in tt wordy A4 paper' game again..haha..train ur eyesight gal......hehe..

was movie-ing with wa.xuan. and her yesterday. er..ya. tout i could intro her to wa too..haha..caught nania..hee...niceee show..guess its the oni chance i could get to see eileen..hurr..oops.

xuan look cool with her new hairstyle..*thumbs up* n ya..still trying to get familarised with her new christian name tt hopped frm 'zenn' to 'rouge'. lets hope it stays tt way..if nt very tiring to adapt ah..

nice feeling to see em again..though the chill out time is short..awaiting fer our next meetin le! and and and..i am so so so so excited and happy fer wa..hurr hurr hurrr...=) xuan felt the same way too! we wana hear more of it!

pretty tired after the long night me her and my sis had..came back only 630am..went to find her at viva den to ktv..erm...gets freaky when she got along well with my sis...like huh..? nw she claims she bond us together cuz i hardly hardly goes out with my sis..ya..felt weird to be hanging out with her lately mannn.

travelled all the way to sengkang..for some hair mangement thingy. wasnt a success. wahhhh. its like we gt back hme. bathe n came outta hse le..my dad was like starin at us and wondering wads the prob with us mann..but we didnt care much. -__-

oh ya. back to the movie part. hmm..den shopped ard fer awhile b4 wa and her went fer work at ard 4..haiz..hw nicee if we could all chill out fer 1 whole day together..k..den after tt..went good wood park hotel..find cin and to acc xuan to collect her pay..i smuggled in with em and ate the canteen's fd..haha..gt a free dinner.

xuan left fer her reunion dinner while me and cin cont shoppin at far east...lotz of nice shoes....we bought some stuff here and dere..den went to scotts fer dinner..after eating nie called..she was like 'studying..'? i tout dere was smt wrong wif my ear..haha...and yes..she and her GD news..arghh..aiyo as usual..

gave her a surprise! keke..wanted to shock her in a diff manner..but oh damn. she spotted me so fast..=p cin wanted to see her..so brought her to pontini...shun bian let her see hws my wrkplace like..nua-ed at the kitchen fer awhile while waiting fer her to knock off..gerard was wrkin too..n gt to know the gang was meeting fer supper. decided nt to join.. cin left even b4 she knocks off.. oh ya..haha..cin couldnt believe tt she sees her in him...erm...yea..i tout so too..

by the time i gt back..she was done with her stuff le.. saw julie outside..chef's back frm italy! haha..long time no c. he's still the same to me anyway.. oh..den julie was thinkin of means and ways to get me into zouk..i m like...a nua-ing shit le..i didnt wana go tts the whole prob..but she hack care n was thinkin and thinkin..arghhh.. in the end nua-ed awhile at the bus stop with her..till we decided to head hme cuz i was tired..and ya..both of us acted like small air ghost cuz of a stupid comment tt i passed when a lady walked past..*i realli realli misheard maaaaaaa. =(
anyway i gt hme. laid flat on my bed while she went back to zouk to find em..lucky thing was the shots were almost finished by den..=) gd fer her. yea.

oh ya. somebody hada eat grass fer the wk..hahahahahaha. i am so evil..i likeeeee.

the smallest thing she does makes my day.
surprises can be stunning yet so sweet.
like wad can i say..........

slp-less

2006-01-11T06:59:00.000+08:00

yep.its 7am nw. didnt slpt a wink at all. juz finished poa tutorial oni...*finally*

was hme early fer the night..but after all the nua-ing..mum's nagging session..i could officially start my hw like after 3am? haiz.. wad a night..make no diff if i were out loh..

yea wad a PH. was supposedly not wrkin de..den last min notice again..argh..if nt it would be such a cool chill out day with xuanie..our shopping are yet to be done mann...=( and movie with wa..ok...when would tt day come. suddenly miss em so much..

determined nt to be late fer lecture latr..haha..so i decided to stay awake..cuz i noe i cant possibly be satisfied with 45 mins of slp. so yea..its wise to be blogging nw..at least it keeps me awake at the moment..

guess wad. she did it again. fer the 2nd time. slpt while on the phone with me. arghhh. shld hav expected it. eeeeew. a freaking 2nd time. HMPH.

ok...gona be a long day tml..haiz..wrk sch and everythin r making me go bonkers. shit it man.yes yes. and all the 'nt started' projects. erm. ok. seemed quite dead.

i badly need the motivation to study again.
the results were such a disappointment.
needa wake up le.